*embrace the skies

2007-05-03T09:25:00.000-07:00

OMG!! its been ages since I blogged! But its a good thing since I stopped blogging I havent heard a single rumor about me, either they have gotten sick of me (which i highly doubt) or they just got better at hushing it! Anyway Im blogging cause I wanna wish a dear close FRIEND oh mine congrats for getting out of surgery alive and well and cant wait till he gets better so we can go out again. And to another friend DONT DO IT!! Dont be a stupid boy and do it! Im'ma call you and we are gonna have a VERRRRY long chat!! I hope I will be able to do that tomorrow:S uhm.....I think thats all the shout outs....OH yeah and to everyone thats 'studying' for their exams good luck, I wish you all the best, remember study smart not hard hehe. Okays I think thats it=) byeeeee take care

xoxo
ciao

"Lets go to the park, I wanna kiss you underneath the stars, Maybe we'll go too far, We just dont care..."=)

2007-03-26T08:52:00.000-07:00

Listening to Baby I love your way by Bob Marley

Im gonna try and remember everything I did in Phillippines and blog about it cause I never wanna forget about it.

Saturday 17/03/07-
We all met up at Brunei Airport around 5pm where we took heaps of pictures and said goodbye to all our loved ones. We got into the plane around 7:30pm and took off at 8 (I think) I sat next to JR and both of us was hoping that no one would sit next to us so we would have more space but sadly a lady sat in between us and no offence but she smelled alot, so I change seats with Kim Carl, I was now stuck with Bianca and Mags. We were so noisy and loud and we took so many pictures. So its safe to say that the journey there wasnt bad. We reached Ninoy Aquino International Airport around 10:30pm where there was another hustle of getting our baggage etc etc. We then went down to gate S? where there were poeple waiting for us. Swee mei, Beatriz, Mags and I were all in the same car, my first impression of Manila was WOW!! DIFFERENT!! the driving there is so damn different from here ANYWAYS we got droped of at our hosts house the Nuguids which consisted of tita Zosie, tito Nes, Carlo, Noel, Agnes and Sara. Their an awesome family. Mags was my partner in enjoying the warm welcome of the Nuguid family. Our room wasnt bad at all, we had our own computer&printer with broadband, a tv with cable and Air Condition in our room. So Mags and I checked our emails and after our exhausting trip to Manila we collapsed on the single beds that was there for us.

Sunday 18/03/07-
We were suppose to be up at 6am but being us we woke up late, Mags woke up at 6:30am and I woke up around 7:30am (I know tsk tsk me lols) anyways we got ready really fast then went downstairs for breakfast thinking we were late, after breakfast we were waiting to get picked up, while waiting tita Zosie's parents came and introduced themselves, Mags did all the talking cause I didnt know what they were talking bout hehe. We got picked up at 9am, Swee mei and Beatriz was in the same car as us so the four of us started talking about our hosts. We got to the GK site (late but ah wells) were we met up with the rest and started talking about our hosts and taking heaps of pictures. A mass was given by bisop Sim in the heat and we all felt like we were gonna melt. After mass, we continued talking, taking pictures and walked to Arkhong Bato and on the way there we could see the poor people and how they lived it was so sad to see, when we got to Arkhong Bato it was so different from the other houses there, it was better looking and colourful and lively not at all like the poor peoples homes. We then made our way back to the GK site had lunch then put on our sexah overalls and got to work, Bianca and I did the shoveling of gravels to make the cement, while Kevin and Dom passed down the buckets of gravels along the human chain. After shoveling Bianca and I moved to making the cement then passing the buckets of cement along our human chain. After that we made another human chain from the top of GK to the bottom where we started passing down hollow blocks, Mimi, Bianca, Kim, JR, Frankie and I was on top so we were working non stop, it was fun because us girls was working so hard and fast where as the guys were so slow so we kept telling them off, there were a few blocks that got broken by my ahaha(it was an accident, I swear) we were then joined by kevin who started imatating South Park stuff it was hillarious. We finished our work at 4:30pm where we rested for awhile and was then picked up by our hosts. When we got home, Mags and I had the Longest showers, went downstairs for dinner, spent sometime with our foster parents then went up to our room where I just lazed on my bed while Mags sang in the magic mic. At around 7:30pm we got picked up by Bianca and Mimi's hosts family, the Peronas which consisted of tita Bless, tito Ed, Andrew/Edsel, Paulo and Betina. They took us to Promenade, whilst there we went to Timezone where we met up with Kim, Aaron, Kevin and JR. After timezone we met up with kim's hosts which consisted of tito Gary, tita Arlene, Gamboy, Allen and Aaron. So both hosts and all us "kids" went to a restaurent called Burgoo. It was really wicked cause the table cloth was paper and we all started drawing and writhing stuff on it like lil kids. Where I kicked Aarons ass in tick-tac-toe 8-4 baby!! ANYWAYS after stuffing our faces again and our millions of pictures we went Tiendisitas where we met ate Jen and Natalie. We then went back to our hosts and collapsed on our beds.

Monday 19/03/07-
Woke up early, got ready, went down for breakfast Mags and I was then introduced to the wonderful Ovaltine (Which I am now addicted to) we then left to GK site again. There we interacted with the kids there, it was pretty hard cause they couldnt understand me and I couldnt understand them, but even so we still became very close and had so much fun. We played this game where we had to dance around this piece of newspaper and everytime the music stopped we'd have to step on the newspaper with our child and our foot couldnt be our of the newspaper, it was really fun my child and I came second hehe. We then had lunch, said goodbye to our kids and got straight to work, this time we worked on the chaple, we cleaned and fixed everything (it isnt as easy as it sounds) we scraped off all the old paint sweep the place sand the walls, it was so dusty I couldnt stop sneezing and coughing. Then they brought out this really old carpet and huge ass cockroaches ran out of it, everyone literally screamed and ran away(well the girls did) it was pretty nasty as well cause the kids were playing with it and throwing it around like nobody's business it was nasty!! after that bit of screaming we got back to work and to our surprise a huge ass RAT ran towards us where we all started screaming again, so we put our scrapers, sand papers etc etc down and went back to the class room for lunch. After lunch we made our way back to the chapel, where we started painting. I got paint all over me, on my face,hair,hands everywhere, again we started taking millions of pictures. After painting the chapel we made our way back to the class room at the GK site and rested/waited for our hosts to come while waiting we watched a few dances performance performed by the kids there it was awesome!! we then got picked up by our hosts went home, had a shower, had dinner, then talked to Bianca on the phone, after that I collapsed on my bed while watching TV while Mags was online.

Tuesday 20/03/07
We woke up late 8:30am, where we rushed to get ready, ran downstairs to have breakfast then left to GK. we continued painting the chapel until lunch (Betina was there to help us paint as well). During lunch some of us started singing kareoke it was so damn funny. After lunch Bianca and I change our minds and joined the guys in making cement instead of painting the chapel, poor Neil and Dom we took over their work hehe. Bianca and I continued making cement untill 4pm. we then went to Arkhong Bato for mass, then gave candies to all the kids there. Whilst there we took heaps of pictures again!! After that we made our way back to GK site, were we left with Bianca's host tito Ed, he droped us off at our hosts home, where we rushed to pack then left to their place. At Bianca's hosts place, we met with Dutch the sausage dog while the other two crazy dogs were barking at us we met Andrew/Edcel (I call him Edsa). We then had something to eat and had a quick shower. which we then left to Megamall. First thing I got there was a sim card haha. After a bit of shopping we went down to meet tita Bless, while waiting Bianca, Mags, Mimi and I got siomie. We were then joined by tita Bless, Edsa and Paulo and made our way to Kenny Rogers for dinner. While Having dinner we met up with Gamboy, Kim, Kevin, JR and tita Arlene. After Kenny Rogers we all left to go to Starbucks, where we just chilledaxed while having our drinks and listening to Edsa making fun of brownies(he calls bruneians brownies) ANYWAYS we left starbucks around 11pm Bianca, Betina, Paulo nd tita Bless was in one car, and tito Ed, Mags, Mimi nd Edsa was in the other. (Paulo almost hit his dad while revorsing the car hahahahahaha) So we got back to Bianca's hosts place cause we were sleeping over there. Bianca, Mags, Mimi and I all slept in a lil room and it was freezing!!.

Wednesday 21/03/07-
I didnt sleep at all so I woke the rest of the girls up. We got ready and left to starbucks. at first we thought we were late but when we got there we werent so we were waiting outside starbucks untill the rest came so we didnt have timce to get starbucks. We all got into the bus and started on our journey to Tagatay. On our way there we saw alot of cool places/things, like huge ass cans of coke, sprite etc etc nd enchanted kingdom (something like that) but for me the journey there wasnt so fun cause I got sick and kept sleeping most of the time, I didnt eat as well. We stopped by alot of churches, they are so beautiful esp the old ones, we also visited the oldest and bigest church in asia it was so nice man!! we passed by alot of places and bought some stuff on the way. we also stopped by a place "touch the sky" it was awesome!! We continued our trip to Lipa. When we reached Lipa we arrived at Cappucin retreat centre its so nice and cooling there, we then rushed to get ready to for dinner with the archbishop there. After the dinner we went back to the retreat and Bianca, Mimi, Mags and I all cramped up in one room cause the rooms were so scary lookin.

Thursday 22/03/07-
We woke up early, got ready then went down for breakfast. After breakfast we had to listen to a talk, after the first talk there was a break, then back for the second talk. after the second talk it was lunch time which we then had a siesta. After our siesta we had another talk then we did the 7 last words and confession. After that we had mass where we were all starving and rush down for dinner. After dinner we were supposed to go shopping but that didnt happen so we had munchies and watched funny videos on screen. after that we all stayed up and talked untill it 10:30pm but Bianca, Mags, Mimi and I couldnt sleep so we stayed up eating and taking to Aubrey, ate Jen, ate Loisa, and ate Babe? after stuffing our faces we went to sleep. This time it was Bianca, Mimi and I that slept in one room, Mags slept in another room by herself (that brave soul lols)

Friday 23/03/07-
We woke up early againg today some woke up extra early to go to church some didnt. So I woke up around 6:30am got ready then went down for breakfast where I met everyone else. After breakfast we had to rush up to get all our baggage, then go back down to the "lobby" and wait for our bus to come, while waiting we took a bunch of pictures again. Our bus came and we left the retreat centre on our way back to Manila. On the way back everyone was sleeping except for me, I was so hyper and loud so I started taking pictures of people sleeping (opps wasnt suppose to say that hehe) I then started going "good morning good morning good mooorning" in a really high pitched voice so then everyone woke up and was like "cyn do you have to say that?!" Okay moving on so we were on our way back to Manila saw some really interesting things. We then stopped by a shop place cause Aaron kept complaining to go to the loo, so when the bus stopped practically everyone got off the bus to pee. We could see Mall of Asia by now so everyone was awake,hyper and loud. The sad thing was we drove right pass Mall of Asia to visit one last Church, the church was so nice it was built by the same person who built Mall of Asia who also owns all the SM. So after visiting the chuch we made our way to Mall of Asia. OMG that mall is fcukin awesome!! 700 shops was having 70%off so theres like more then 700 shops in that mall, its crazy it took us 3 hours to cover one block on the ground floor!!! you can imagine how big it is!! we then left to do more site seeing, visited more churchs one of em had a rally going on so they didnt let us entre (afraid something might happen to us) after site seeing we went to the cardinal? house we ate with him and stuff and again took millions of pictures. After that we left the house and got into our bus and made our way to some town hall. Man the way there was so damn long!! so we started waving at everyone that passed by us it was so funny. When we reached the town hall our hosts were there waiting for us, where we had dinner, games etc etc etc long speeches and took millions of pictures again. Edsa was also there he showed me his tounge ring and I showed him my belly ring, he was gonna take me to buy some but his mom said no haha. Okays so that gathering finished around 11pm and we all made our way back home, on our way home tito brought us to the ovaltine factory, it was pretty cool. We got home packed and collapsed on our beds while watching tv.

Saturday 24/03/07-
Woke up around 8:30am went down for breakfast, gave our soviners to our fosterparents, packed and was then picked up by Edsa, Bianca, Mimi and Betina. Mags and I didnt have time to get ready so we said goodbye to our fosterparents and their kids and took millions of pictures in our PJ's barefooted we got into the car and left. When we reached their house I got ready first so while waiting for Mags to finish her shower and stuff we were upstairs Bianca, Mimi and Betina was playing pool while I sat near the fan drying my hair and Edsa was just being Edsa hehe. He then started playing drums so I asked him to teach me some stuff, man its kinda hard!! So then Mags came and joined us. We then had lunch and after lunch it was time to say goodbye to Paulo, Betina and Edsa cept we couldnt find Edsa untill we were in the car. So we said our goodbyes and took heaps of pictures as usual then left the house and made our way to GK site. When we got there we met up with the YFC there where we played some games and got to know each other better (the YFC Manila I mean) around 5pm we said goodbye to all the people in GK the kids, parents, YFC, everyone and made our way to the Airport. On our way there we saw some cool buildings again. On the way to the airport was really sad because none of us wanted to leave and tito was like oh its gonna be so quiet at home etc etc it was really sad. So we reached the airport tito said goodbye and left straight away cause he was sad that we were going and he didnt want to see us leave and stuff. So we met up with the rest of the gang took millions of pictures and made our way in. We checked in our bags and sat on the floor Bianca and I was just looking at all the pictures we took, all the memories we have it was really sad. We then got seperated the non filipino and filipino so us non fillipino went first with brother Erin, Aubrey and Bishop, and was followed by Mimi, Mags, Neil, Mel, Aaron, Kevin, Frankie, Natalie and I. We went through customs had to take out our shoes and everything then made our way down to gate 3. This was now 9pm so while waiting for the rest to come all of us went upstairs to shop. Around 10pm we went downstairs where we met everyone else and started talking, then we found out that our flight was delayed by an hour. So by 12am we went in the flight, I sat next to Mags and Bianca, first we were really hyper but after eating we all fell asleep. When I woke up we had already landed and it was 2am so no one was really in the mood for anything, we just choped our passports took our bags took millions of pictures said goodbye to everyone and went home.

Sorry details not included=)

xoxo
ciao

2007-03-13T07:46:00.000-07:00

Listening to Just Feel Better by Santanna feat. Steven Tylor

You know when you listen to a certain type of music/song it reminds you of something/someone etc or just how you feel inside but cant seem to say it....and it actually makes you sad, why is that? or maybe its just me..I dunno...gosh the days seems to be going by so damn slow, Im trying to write down how I feel, but its just like uh...whatever, I really dont know anymore, sometimes I just wanna quit all this and just take a break, just sleep for a whole week or something....iono.....its one of those days where everything I do doesnt really matter anymore
I know I say this alot but, seriously relationships are getting waaay to complicated and does not mix with me anymore, its like i always end up being hurt no matter what. (I was gonna say something very smart but i forgot ahahahahahahahaha) anyways, im gonna go

xoxo
ciao

2007-03-09T00:42:00.000-08:00

Listening to S.O.S by Rihanna

Erge! Dont you just hate it when somebody acts like she knows all of your friends. I mean she knows of him and acts like she knows him better then me!! erge! I hate it, ok I dont mind if you talk about him when I start the conversation about him but if you talk about him all the time it just pissess me off! all the information she gets about him is from ME! She hasnt even met the guy!!! uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. (takes deeeeeeeeeep breath)
Ok, nevermind that, Im not gonna let it bother me, 'cause the WEEKEND IS HERE!! YAY!! you know what that means?? "screw you guys Im going to Labuan to ~~get drunk~~ have a relaxing weekend" while you guys are here, in Gaydong, drinking mocktails, I will be in Labuan drinking cocktails, none of those fake mocktails, hehe and while you guys are saying "I wonder how clubs look like and stuff like that" HAHAHAHAHA well I'll be in one dancing the night awaaaaaaaaaaayyyy!! (oh I feel sorry for you AHAHAHAHAHAHAA) but dont worry Im sure you'll have fun, maybe not as much as me. Maybe one day you will know how it feels like hehe. Ok me gonna go get ready for the school disco, woo.

till next time

xoxo ciao

2007-03-05T08:28:00.000-08:00

Listening to By The Way by Hinder

Ok, so I am so tired, I literally dont know what I am doing anymore + Im loosing my marbles. Man I want to say I regret going out last night/this morning, but I so dont, I actually really needed it especially speeding down the free way at 2am doing 195. But Im not here to talk about that, Im here to take all my anger out on a certain person/people/group who lets just say needs to grow up, mature up and get fucking laid (as Dian says) because their "im so innocent, i dont know anything, i dont bitch about people" thing is getting old, very very old, and frankly if I hear that one more time, I think I would shuve a 50inch dildo (is that how you spell it) up their so called ass. As cold as it sounds, they need it. I mean ok, see I dont mind if you bitch about me then stop I can handle that but why do you wanna bitch about me everysingle day of your life? do you not have anything else to talk about? or do? why is it that you are NOT satisfied with your life so you bitch, to make your self better, does that even work?!?! Im guessing it doesnt, because the bitching hasnt stopped. Im just so.............annoyed!!! ehhhhhhhh!!! PISS ME OFF!! I just wanna bitch slap them. ( ok cyn breath in....breath out) anyways my reasonable bitching has to stop here, its 2am and I need to sleep, or else.
I think im loosing my marbels man, I have been forgeting alot of stuff, names, people, work, I seriouslly need a weekend of just sleep and nothing else. this could seriously damage my exams man. and ok I dont get it, because I cant be security and that im not going for the disco this friday, im not allowed to go for the year 11 party thing. whatthe? uh why? (not that I wanna go) but still, arent I in year 11? this school is so......(I wont say it, you use your wild imagination and think of it yourself)

till next time.

xoxo
ciao

2007-03-04T10:02:00.000-08:00

Listening to It Takes Beauty To Replace An Old Ugly Frame

Ok, so its 2:05am, I just got home hahahaha. my weekend wasnt as planned. I was not suppose to go out this weekend but I guess, it wasnt meant to be, hehe. I woke up at 12pm today, had to rush and get ready for sunday school, where I met up with Mags and we just did the usual hehe. After the class, I went to mass ( yes, I got to church people, imma goooood girl) anyways. after church I went to a party with Uri, man that party was boring, we were the only teens there, so we started making fun of the people there, as mean as it sounds, it wasnt hehe. the party was so quiet, Uri and I were the only one laugh our asses off etc etc. so we ate and straight away left, where we went to gadong. we wanted to watch a movie, but nothing good was on, so we went to swensens (is that how you spell it?) had had ice-cream, and chatted till late. We then went to Chill and had nachos and just chilled and talked etc etc, we also met Izzat who joined us for awhile, then left. When he left, we saw Mish, who talked to us for awhile then left. Around 11pm, we left chill, and just cruise around brunei, went to see the new Q-lap mall, then went to mamih for a drink, and just chatted there till about 1-ish. On our way back, we first did 160km/hr on the free way, we then stopped to check if the tires were ok, then did 195km/hr it was fucking awesome, but verry dangerous especially when we had to turn, the car was shaking like crazy and we could feel it like lift and stuff, then the cops saw us, well actually the passer bys saw us when we stopped so they called the cops, but luckily we got away with it, it was so weird though 'cause we were talking abt what if the cops came, and just then they did, we were like OMG hahahaha kinda thing hehe (I know stooopid hehehe) then we got lost sending me home, but found out way back in jln muara hehe. So here I am blogging about it hehe, it was a fun/chill out day. had heaps of fun, hehe. anyways im gonna go to bed 'cause its 2:17am and I have school in few hours (hooray!! *sarcasm*) so take cares guys.

till next time.

xoxo
ciao

2007-03-03T05:35:00.000-08:00

Listening to If everyone cared by Nickelback

Man this weekend has been so busy for me, I havent gone out (which is a good thing, I think) I have been at home doing work and somehow it feels like I havent accomplished much at all. It sucks!! Next week&the week after, is gonna be so busy for me, Im gonna hand in all my english coursework on monday, my math past year paper 3, I have to see Ms.Tosene (is that how you spell her name) and I have to see Mrs.Sanderson. On tuesday my malay orals have to be memorised for a practice oral test, then on Thursday is my malay oral exam (SHIT!!) friday is the disco (nothing much there hehe) uhm then the week after next, on tuesday I have my ICT exam(shi-it!!) but lets not forget my music coursework which I have no skills in. and drama? well Im all confused for that, so lets not talk about it, 'cause just thinking about it makes my head hurts hehe.
So as you can see, because of these stooopid wonderful courseworks, my social life is now on hold. and it looks like I wont be going to Labuan for awhile as well. ( which sucks ass!!)
Phillippines trip is 2 weeks from now, I hope it will be fun hehe, urge!! Im gonna be dead by the time I get back, because our flight back from Phillippines is around 1:45am, which means we will reach brunei around 3:30-45am, by the time I get home it would be around 4-4:15/30am and I probably wont get to bed untill 5:00am then on that very same day I have to take the 7:00am ferry to Labuan, then take a flight to K.K. how exhausting! just saying it makes me wanna sleep more hehe.
uhm, okays I think thats it for now. till next time guys,

xoxo
ciao

"Love is giving someone the ability to hurt you, but trusting them not to."

2007-02-28T06:37:00.000-08:00

Listening to Starling by Muse

Im not sure why Im blogging, I have nothing to say, I wanna blog about my 2 weeks run away but its too long, Im too lazy and I dont want alot of people to know about it.

Just a warning this blog is completely rubbish and a waste of time, and its gonna be really random, so dont read it, unless you really want to.

So why is it that people copy other people? is it the craving of being accepted? wanting to be like that person maybe? or maybe just to piss that person off? and what drives us sane? keep us going in life, its the little things that annoyes and makes us angry and yet at the same time its those little things that makes us happy.
Why is it that students want to be accepted in that group? when we know what they are like, is it because then you know that you have another group talking about you?
And rumors. Its just stories people make up because they are jealous and is not satisfied with their own life, well why dont they do something about it instead of starting rumors, to ruin someones reputation.
Chocolates why are they so tasty? i mean that thing screams out fat! hehehe

wooosshhh cucumber man!! idaho? youdaho!! 'wakakakaka' hehe

And boys!! why do they have to be so darn complicated! I mean jeeze and they say girls are complicated!
okays Im gonna go 'cause this is such a waste of time hehe.

till next time ( where I actually blog properly)

xoxo
ciaos

2007-02-25T04:36:00.000-08:00

I'd do anything to just feel better.

xoxo
ciao

2007-02-14T07:48:00.000-08:00

Listening to Come As You Are by Nirvana

Okay, so my week has been messed up!! I am still sick, and can get worse (JUST GREAT!!) so on tuesday after maths I went to nurse 'cause I felt dizzy, so the nurse gave me some pills to take and asked me to rest, which I did without any hessitation. Then she called my uncle to pick me up from school, 'cause I was just TOOOOOO sick, so the nurse sent me home because of the lack of sleep, not eating properly, streesed out, and because of my cough and flu, so I went home. later that day I went to the doctors and he said the same thing, and gave me alot of pills and syrup to take. Both said that I need alot of rest and to start eating properly, the doctor also said that I could get worse and actually get admitted into hospital for exhaustion and lack of food, so ofcourse I paniced and I am gonna try my very best to change my diet.
Today however, since morning I had a constant headache and wanted to throw up alot and everytime I moved everything moved in slow motion and my head became heavy for me to carry (kinda like when you get high when your drunk, but ofcourse I wouldnt know that he-he) ANYWAYS yeah so I felt really sick, so I went to see the doctor again and to my luck guess what????!!!! I have low blood pressure, as if my health isnt bad enough, so yeah I really have to change, the doctor was like if I dont take care now, the next time I could get admitted into the hospital etc etc I dont wanna risk it, so Im not gonna go to school tomorrow, 'cause I really have to get alot of rest.
But it was so sweet, Naz texted me when I was in the clinic and my cousin had my mobile so he was like "cynthia is with the doctor, she is really sick, she might have to go to the hospital and stay there for awhile" stuff like that and Naz paniced and called straight away and was like "are you okay? do you have to go to the hospital? do you need anything?" stuff like that sooooo sweeeeet man >.< hehe. and few mins ago he just texted going "darling, hope you get better soon, dont forget to take your med's and sleep early, like now, not around 12am or later i dont think you should go to school tomorrow, just rest and take it easy ya' cant wait to see you again, miss you soo much, hugs and kisses 4 u...muuuaaaahhhssss" AHHHH I know im acting like a child, but its really sweeeeet hehe. okays im gonna go now all the pills and syrup are making me sleepy ( I feel like such a druggie man) take cares guys, nighty nights/morning hehe.

till next time ya?

xoxo
ciao

2007-02-12T05:16:00.000-08:00

Listening to Jakatta by Jakatta

*sigh* I feel SICK!!!=( I stiil got my flu (from last week) I got cough from Naz and starting to get fever, and worst of all MY VOICE IS GOING!!! urge, my weekend wasnt bad hehe, it was great actually, uhm, not gonna talk about it cause Im too lazy, but I will talk about my trip back because it is decent and funny if you were there kinda thing hehe, okay so I got into the ferry like 5 mins before it was about to leave and it was PACKED so but lucky I saw Jackie (she's from JIS, Year 12) and she had a 2 seater seat, so I sat next to her and we were talking and filling in our forms when Magerate and her little sister came and there werent any seats left so they were outside, ( both of them are from JIS as well, Mags is in year 10 and her sis in year 7) anyways, after filling in our forms we went outside to join the two sisters, Mags and her sis, are eurasian, dusun&british, who are malaysians, and can speak malay and chinese way better then me, anyways Jackie ( she is a crazy chiqa man same with Mags, their effing awesome, and Mags looks SO DAMN MUCH like Mary) bought some alcohol so we were just chillin&drinking but it got boiling HOT so the 4 of us went inside, and HAHA see, since there werent any seats left for Mags&her sis, so the 4 of us were squashed in the 2 seater seat laughing our ass off and it was so hot as well and 'cause we were so loud the guy and lady in front who was trying to sleep, couldnt and kept giving us bitchy face expressions hehe it was cause we were tipsy hahaha ( but Mags's little sis wasnt, underage drinking man ahahaha) anyways, uhm and when we were getting out, MAN the malay ladies are so rough they just push you and dont really care, we were like the first few to stand up and wait and was the last ones to get off the ferry, sotong man, sheese. uhm okays, me gonna go.

till next time.

xoxo
ciao

2007-02-08T06:01:00.000-08:00

Listening to Work by Jimmy Eat World
Feeling, sick, scared, annoyed, and happy (haha)

Bleh, so far my week hasnt been that bad, yesterday was the best we did JACK SHIT!! Hamish told us a few ghost stories which got us jumping off our seats and screaming in malay ahaha it was funny man, you could see Bianca,Chris, See Keyong and I like jump backwards and scream ahaha and the teacher just goes "Hamish stop scaring the girls" hahaha. Uhm, urge!! Its freekin Thursday and guess what? I have to get sick, why? why? WHY?!?! I refuse to get sick, I will not allow that to happen, not during my weekend!! I REFUSE TO GIVE IN AND GET SICK, refuse I tell ya' REFUSE!!! *snezze* uh, and uhm, oh Valentines next week, hurray? Im just gonna make this a short blog 'cause I have to study for History, yet again. Woopii going to Philippines next month for a week, cant wait to SHOP till I drop hehe, I'll get a few people something, depends how much you mean to me hehe. yeah I guess thats it for now hay,

till next time, normally I would put something vain here, but I got nothing today hehe.

NYAN IS COMING BACK!!! YAY!!!

xoxo
ciao

2007-02-05T06:54:00.000-08:00

Listening to The World Looking In by Morcheeba
Feeling, Happy?

( Just so you know, this post ish gonna be belly belly random)

Okays, so the weekend wasnt bad, it was kinda fun, not fun as in getting drunk, kinda thing, it was a nice chillaxin fun weekend, for once hehe. uhm, school wasnt so bad today, we did jack shit, Im so happy I got 100% for my ICT, perfect scores man, haha and uhm, Tet Wee and I changed identity, I call him Cynthia and he calls me Tet Wee haha, it feels so weird man, hahahaha. We spent most of ICT gossipin, yesh I was gossipin with the guys instead of the girls hehe. Im suppose to be revising for History tomorrow, I shall do it soon.
Urge!!! I can hear my self goiin "dont fall for him Cyn" buuuut its so hard, I cant help it, I've been keeping my self busy so I dont have to think of him, but ARGE!! so hard man. I might be going to over this weekend so uhm, we gonna have an early valentines hehe, that should be belly belly interesting, and of course the first to know all of this is the one and only Dian J. Saxon hehe and Dinesh you guys should be honoured man hahahaha. Uhm, yeah man, so cant help my self. Oh its that time again where, people ask me to give them roses, its kinda lame if you really think about it, but its okay, thats what valentines are all about riight, giving flowers/chocolates/presents to the people you care most. Even though I dont celebrate valentines, its still nice of me to give people stuff I guess hehe *ahemNICKahemISAahemDIANahem& many more* and you know everyone else that I care most, but I must say that not everyone will get something from me this year, not that Im bein mean or anything.
AHH!!! cant wait to go to Labuan man, Brunei drives me insane sometimes, theres absolutly NOTHING to do here. Uhm, okays I have nothing pointless to add to the blog so Im gonna go "study" for History.

Till next time, or maybe next week, where I blog about my weekend, and I know people like to read about my weekend and start gossipping *chuckels*

xoxo
ciao

"I can hear my self saying Dont fall for him Cyn, but its so harrd."

Flowers says Im sorry, Candy/Chocolates says I Love you.

Remember: Beer and Grass your on your ass. Grass and Beer your in the clear.

2007-02-02T06:03:00.001-08:00

Listening to Digital Love by Daft punk.
Feeling....realistic not EMO (people always think just 'cause your expressing how you feel, your being EMO, EMO is dislike your life and wanting to end it not expressing how you feel in a formal matter)

Uhm, what can I say, its a Friday night, Im at home, cant figure out what to say/reply in Naz's email, have been drinking alot of green tea, and feeling oh so FAT!!! So me ish goiin to the gym tomorrow with Chris. School hasn't been bad, I mean no more girl drama so thats good, buut Im starting to realize how important my studies and exams are, we had the "your future" talk with Mrs.Sanderson, and it hit me so hard on my face, on how much I have to study/revise for this exam, 'cause without this results I go no where, not even IB, Mrs.Sanderson said that to get into IB we need to fill in the forms, on what subjects we want then, Her, Mr.Powell and Mr.Canterford will look at our results and decide which letter we get, the thing is its not about getting to IB, but getting into UNI, if I dont get good grades for my I/GCSE then I dont get into UNI or IB, which means I have to go to some collage, what if that doesnt work out, what if I become a bum, living off my parents money, like those "people" what then? Am I allowed to make my own decision about what Im gonna do for the rest of my life? what if that doesnt work out? I dont even know what I want to be, while everyone else does, should I be making these decisions at 16 which will affect me in 5-10 years time, or possibly sooner. All these questions keep poping up and Im like "shit". sometimes I wish I could see my future, just to know that I will be ok. The pressure of doing well in my life has just sunk in, from 3 parents who I dont even see, so how do I know if im making the right desicions? People think its so easy, and fun I mean no parents, I can do whatever I want, well, I guess it is somehow, cause its not like they've been there all the time when I was young anyway, maybe thats why Im like this, all the guys, drinking, smoking, clubbing, shopping so much, maybe this is my cry to them. Yeah sure, Im a teenager Im supposed to try drinking and smoking, but where is the limit of trying and not, I drink like every weekend. And it not that I mind, but to find out that Im a big disapointment to my uncle and aunt and how they blame me for being a bad influence to my cousin Charlotte and Iris, just pisses me off, yeah I know, Im not perfect but to blame me for their childrens doings cause they are too daft, blind and ignorant to see what their children wants and needs is just fucking stupid, they dont know what their girls do behind their backs but do they care? no the only solution is "Cynthia is influencing them, so lets not tell them off cause they dont have a mind of their own to think, lets blame it all on Cynthia" how big of them.
It feels like Im walking on ice here, anyways Im gonna ciao for now, the meds are kicking in hehe.

xoxo
ciao

"Dont for once think my life is perfect and easy, just 'cause I get what I want"

2007-02-02T06:03:00.000-08:00

2007-01-29T06:28:00.000-08:00

Listening to The Rest Of My Life by Less Then Jake
Feeling, pissed off, sad and guilty

Its been ages since I last bloged, 'fink 'cause nothing interesting happened or I couldnt be bothered to hehe. Labuan wasnt so bad, On Friday at school a ate this sausage roll thingy and got sick 'cause of it, like literally sick, in Biology I couldnt do anything and my head was on the table the whole two period and I think Ms.Wooley knew 'cause she just left me, but like when I got home, I threw up, then left to Labuan. When I reached I was still feeling sick, and I did get sick, I got really high fever, flu and upset stomach it sucked, I took so much med's and hahaha Picie shared my drink and he got sick aswell haha so we, (my 4 cousins and Picie ) spent Friday under the covers *well it was only Picie and I that was unedr the covers* watching all the movies I brought, hehe I had a bucket next to me and Picie had 3 boxes of tissue hahaha. Luckly though we got better on Saturday, I stoped vomiting, my fever went down and my flu wasnt so bad, same for Picie so, at around 3pm we went swimming at Tiara *as usual we took over the pool* there, we met Jeremy *this cute guy that Charlotte has a crush on* but he left early so not much happened there, but we were then joined by Naz and Jerry. And that was fucking awesome, and uhm, lets just say Naz and I did stuff we werent supposed to. We swam till 7pm, while everyone was having a shower and everything my cousin Charlotte and I went to the Sona, there she told me some of her problems that was bothering her, and some disturbing ones as well, like that guy thats stalking her (if i find out who that is Im so gonna effing shuve my heels up his you know where) ANYWAYS...we were then interupted by Naz who joined us in the sona, and laid down on my lap, so the three of us was there for about an hour just talking, haha I love Naz man, Charlotte told him about the stalker dude and he was like "do you want me to kill him?" hehe anyways, while talking Cindy came and chased us out to get ready 'cause we were leaving soon, which we did after 2 minutes of "Naz will take me home dont worry" hehe. After swimming we went to u.k. just hanged out till 9:25pm where we left for home, got home Cindy and I had 5 mins to get ready to go out (me still in my bikini) got ready..really fast and left the house at 9:30pm (hahaha I was still wearing my bikini hehehe) first we went to S.P.E, where we joined my aunt, two JIS girls, Sabrina and Finion. At 11:30pm the two JIS girls, Sabrina and Finion left, when they left we were joined by these guys from Norway (Cant remember their names) hehe, then surprisingly Adam and DJ Yeo came and told us that we MUST go to popin hehe, they had one drink then left to popin. At 12am we sent my aunt home and Cindy and I left for Popin, where it was packed like crazy!!! We met up with Rudy (Cindy's bf), Lim & her friend, Adam and DJ Yeo. OMG, when Rudy went to the toilet, his friend introduced Cindy and I to, two of his friends whom Rudy doesnt know. so when Rudy came back he saw that the guys were coming a little to close, he basically punced the two guys, I was like AWESOME!!!! FIGHT!! but Cindy told me not to encourage it and she had to stop Rudy hehe, but then Rudy's friend came and said sorry etc etc and Rudy was like "oh I didnt know they were your friends etc etc" hehe so after that bit of excitment, we mucked around, danced, drank the night away and cause Cindy and I have been drinking since 9:3opm we needed to use to loo and guess what the girls loo was out of order so Adam took us to the one upstairs where the manager and stuff go, and we were like so DAMN LOUD talking, laughing and like going up the stairs and falling over, Adam was falling over as well so it was ok hehe, and the workers were just staring at us going "these strange people" hahaha. We continued with our drink, dance thing, then Cindy introduced me to the Excutive Manager of Popin(he now knows me YAY!! hehe) and to the head of police hehe so they all know me now. Oh and Rudy introduced me to one of his friend where he did this AWESOME magic trick but got interupted 'cause Cindy pulled me to the dance floor *shhesshh I wanted to know what happened to the cig* hehe. Then....Naz came and uh you can guess what happened. We left popin at 4am, went to the little shops to eat then went home. Woke up at 11am the next day, it was raining like hell, the whole freaking day, so I couldnt come back to Brunei, all the ferry's were cancelled, so Cindy and I went to Tiara and swam where we saw Jeremy again so we just hung out by the pool till evening. Then at night Rudy took Cindy and I for a ride cause his oh-so-fucking-sexah car came out, and the sound system is so FUCKING AWESOME the best I have ever heard, and I have heard alot hehe. It such an awesome car, and so low as well. Came back at 12am and went to bed 'cause I was taking the mornin ferry back to brunei. Im so damn sleepy 'cause my perfect sleep was interupted by Naz's 3am call, where he told me about his day, I was so sleepy I dont remember half the stuff he said hehe. but I have an idea 'cause he told me on Saturday that he was going boxing. Urge!! I miss him and I know I shouldnt, his so sweet....and buff, really tall, strong like I can sit on his shoulder while he is standing for as long as he want outside the pool and not feel anything, ofcourse I freaked out 'cause it was so high so he put me down hehe and he did like hand push-ups thingy while I was lying on them Im like how the fuck do you do that, arent I heavy??? hehe but it was all cool, I've actually known him for ages now and his big.....in more ways then one, if you get my drift....
I feel so bad, I mean I didnt see, talk or anything with Razie, I spent my weekend with basically......Naz(who is Rudy's cousin, so yep yep muslim)
Ok I think thats it for now, and my scandalous life, and yesh I know alot of people are gonna talk to me about "it" after reading this *sigh* anyways gonna go, duty calls...well not really Im just texting Picie and on the phone with Naz

xoxo
ciao

2007-01-11T01:39:00.000-08:00

Listening to Maneater by Nelly Furtado
Feeling HAPPY AND HYYYYPER

We had science prac exam today, it wasnt hard and it wasnt easy...hehe I did the biology one so fast, spend so much time for physics and rushed through Chemistry haha. I almost blew up the Chemistry lab cause for my chem experiment it sucked back and at first I didnt know untill Mr.Rigger told me I was like SHIT!!! but luckly it started bubbling again and I was like phew haha not only that but haha Nick almost blew up the place as well, he wanted to light the bunsen burner but that didnt happen hehe cause the tube was connected to the other side and he turned on the other gas thingy so when he lighted the match there was like this huge as flower flame and Mr.Rigger paniced and like ran to his place and put the fire out hahaha everyone one was like OH SHIT!!! and paniced a bit but then everyone was ok again hehe, man what an interesting exam and I dont mean the experiment, I mean all the accidents happening and like Eqbal, Amanda and I was talking at one point and Mrs.Sanderson didnt know hehe.

Guess what day it is tomorrow?!?! FRIDAY!!!!!!!!! YAY!!! Just have to get pass the english and science paper 1 exam and I am on my way to LABUAN!!!! hehehe, so cant wait!!

UMMMM..lets seeeeee what else....I think thats it ay,

till next time guys,

xoxo
ciao

2007-01-09T06:10:00.000-08:00

Listening to No promises by Shayne Ward
Feeling its unexplainable.

OK so science exam was effing crap!!! I hated it!!! Im positive that I failed so..im gonna do well for paper 1 & 5 to get those extra marks, well atleast tomorrow is english so I can sleep in, hehe, while others do their killer malay exam ehehehe.
I dont really know what else to blog cuz I bloged just now in ICT. ah wells gonna make this short. Oh but I gotta say something though, Lane randomly started chatting to me, and its like awkward and like iono its weird, but good in away, he's leaving in two weeks time so he wants to catch up and see how im doing before he leaves thats really..sweet in a way hahaha and hoped that we'd bump into each other in gadong so he can give me my x'mas present hehe. Anyways moving on to better news, my dad said that if I pass my mocks he will pay for me to start on my driving lessons, you know what that means AHHHHH a new car *ahemBLOOD RED RX-8ahem* and I cn drive AHHHHHHHHHHH I so cant wait...best bit is he said that I dont have to get perfect marks as long as I pass my exam...if not I have to wait for my I/GCSE which is a long time sooooo ahhhhhh I cant wait hehehehe. You know what 2007 doesnt seem that bad, maybe cause my 2006 was bad hehe.

okays till next time guys,

xoxo
ciao

2007-01-08T18:50:00.000-08:00

Listening to people clicking their mouse
Feeling bored&smiley

Urge!!! In ICT right now, finished my exam so I have nothing to do, its so BORING!!!! and so quite, all I can hear is chairs being draged along from up stairs, people clicking their mouse and the AC. I cant go on friendster cause they blocked it, I cant even go on my own site.. jeeeeze man, *hahahaha I fink Eqbal almost fell asleep hahaha* as I was saying jeeeze hehe.
AHH only 2 more days till Friday or was iiit 3 more days....? whatever it is, its still close so YAY!! Our printer became physco just now and started printing out heaps and heaps and HEAPS of stuff in chinese and it like wouldnt stop and Ms.Hancox started to panic and pissed of at the same time haha. And stupid Rif , such a cheater kept looking at my screen cause he couldnt do it, and he sent me an email asking me how to do task C cause he couldnt do it, buut being the good girl that I am, I didnt help him cheat, yes I know Im good...hahahaha
Man everyone who has finished are like so bored and we have SO much time left, ummm lets see what else..ahh Im so bored.
Oh yay!! DJ Yeo is coming to spin in popin in two weeks time..I have to go...HAVE TOOOOO!!!!!
hehe anyways I think thats it fo-OH SHIT!!!! I have Science exam next!! Oh crap oh crap oh crap oh crap!!!

wish me luck guys:S
till next time ay,

xoxo
ciao

2007-01-08T05:42:00.000-08:00

Listening to Break it off ft Rihanna by Sean Paul
Feeling....HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY

We had our english exam today it wasnt that bad, it wasnt hard and wasnt easy you know what I mean?!?! Anyways Im just so happy today..i dont really know why hehe. I got great new from my uncle James and his gonna be fine , which is fucking awesome!!!
Razie called which made my day even better!! hehe ok this may sound so geeky buuut hehe I've been counting the days till I go to Labuan I know its not that far but still, hehe 4 days yay!! Eh I so cant wait!!!! Cant wait to go to Pop-In..but sadly it wont be the same cause DJ Fen has to leave..to go to K.K and be a DJ there...anyways, yeah so-excited-cant-wait-to-go!!!! urge!! got science exam tomorrow which sucks ass, why cant they break them down like bio tomorrow, chem on wednesday and phy on thursday, doesnt that seem more logical then having it all on one day, I have like 6 exercise books and 3 text books to bring..nice one!!! moving oon umm lets see..what else...well theres nothing much really cept be being like a little girl, cant wait to go to Labuan hehe.

till next time guys,
xoxo
ciao

GOOD LUCK EVERYONE!!!!! ON YOUR EXAMS

2007-01-07T04:02:00.000-08:00

Listening to Better than me by Hinder
Feeling iffy?

So this weekend was different, I was so used to my weekends being jam pack and now that its not it feels weird…feels lonely, didnt do much on Friday ay, just stayed at home, Saturday was ok, I went to church (no im not joking), I went to church with Mags and her family and her cute lil cousin RC (he is sooooooo cute), after church we met up with Nigel and Nick, where we started talking about heaps of stuff that I cant remember hehe, then we went to super save, where we met up with Nigel again and started talking, after Nigel left Mags and I was so damn hungry so I bought green tea and a packet of crips and just started stuffing our faces while waiting for her mom to finish shopping. We then went back to her place watched Step Up while eating pasta, then my uncle came and picked me up. When I got back…..I fink thats when the lonely feeling kinda came, I dont know why, but…it just came, today was laid back as well, woke up ate showered watched tv kinda thing. Nothing interesting really.

So I have been thinking and I came up with a few New Year’s Resolution 1) Study harder for I/GCSE 2) Remember to use protection *hehe* 3) Try to have a long term relationship rather then hopping around 3) Don’t do the mistakes I did last year, e.g. things between Mark and I 4) Try not to shop so much 5) Be more independent 6) Hang out with the right group 7) To not give a crap about what people think of me 8) Live life to the fullest 9) Lose weight *hehe* 10) No regrets 11) Make my rents happy (if possible of course) 12) Try go get rid of my eating disorder. Well thats just some of my resolution, I'll probably think of something and add but for now this is good, mines different from others though, cause others are like stop drinking, stop smoking kinda thing and mine is like no regrets and stuff hehehe ahh wells ay hehe.

AHHHH!!! Cant wait till Friday 12/01/07 hehe cause then I get to go to labuan YAY!! Hehe, I feel like a child during Christmas who cant wait to open their present or something hehehehe, so sad man hehe, anyways I have nothing else to say cept I miss Razie hehe.

Till next time guys,
Xoxo
Ciao

2007-01-05T01:29:00.000-08:00

Listening to me and you by Cassie feat. Diddy and Yung Joc
Feeling unexplainable hehe

Okay so exams has officially started..man im scared as crazy!!!! so today I was late for music exam...well I reached like 2mins before the exam which was ok..luckily I wasnt the only one that was late..and luckily we had Mr.Jefferson...Poor David though he came so late, he came like 10-15mins into the exam I fink...luckily Mr.J didnt do anything and let him in the exam and luckily he came in before Mrs.Sanderson, imagine if he came later:s. Anyways...I got all of my stuff organized so I have nothing to do, to distrack me from studying haha..yeah like thats ever gonna happen ay haha...

Life isnt that bad, new year started out great. Besides the thought of exams of course. I did so much shopping during my holiday I had to leave some stuff in K.K hahaha, Got really wasted, but that was only one night, the other nights I got highly tipsy hehe. Dj Fen left popin, its so sad now we have to know the new Dj so he will play our songs hehehe.
Oh I miss not going out in the weekend, and waking up late in the afternoon during the week and getting ready to go out straight away...or go to the beach and have a bbq...or go to tiara and meet up with shuffle dude (I still cant remember what his name was hehe) then in the weekend going to popin..meet up with shuffle dude and stuff...man I so miss that...then going crazy dancing away...on the bar or the speeker hahahaha and if im still abit sober on the dance floor hehe. Oh gawd...I effing MISS IT ALL!!!!!!!! Then coming back at like 5:30am, being hungry so we'll go out again all drunk at the lil shops to eat, we'll be so damn loud talking and laughing and somehow still manage to order the right food hahaha and the waiter will be like *sigh* not them again hahahahaha, and like going home round 7am then falling asleep and waking up round 12pm go swimming then go out again OH T.T I so miss it. Cant wait to do it all again!!!! I miss Razie so much as well, since I drink alot and he doesnt, he takes care of me hehe, hahahaha and being totally drunk and being like best of friends with Picie hahahaha man he's so funny, my cos Cindy told me that we're best of friends when we're drunk hahaha...god knows what we talk abt ay hahaha. T.T I sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo Miss it!!!!! wanna go back man.
And I miss Razie so much as well T.T hehe

Okays I fink I have said enough for now hehe. till next time!!!!

xoxo
ciao

2006-12-23T06:54:00.000-08:00

Listening to My Love by Justin Timberlake ft T.I
Feeling sad in a way and in a lovey dovey my own little world kinda thing hehe

When people say love is blind, what do they really mean.

Ok so hols have been ok, dont really wanna talk about it cause it just makes me depressed about what has happened. But not all bad things happened so it was all good, have been ehehe clubbing with my cousins and some friends.

Him and I are back together again, hehe, and after last night I cant stop thinking about him, he makes me feel all tingly and warm inside...its so hard to explain....ahhh anyway, I wish I could turn back time and go back to last night, I really do=] ahhhh I wish I could put it down in words..but I really cant......!!!!

Anyways I actually had a lot to blog about..but he keeps poping up in my mind and all problems just goes away so hehe. Okays me just gonna go for now..will try and blog properly when...iono hehe.
xoxo
ciao

Scream my lungs out just to get to YOU!

I feel so broken up and I wanna give up when you arent here, you keep me sane.

No one gets me like you do,

Lets run away and never come back, we'll start a new life together,

there's just no one like you.......

2006-12-14T22:37:00.000-08:00

Listening to some stupid game music, when it all falls apart by The Veronicas, Fat guy wrote a song about a girl by Airholes.
Feeling...moody?

So holidays are goin well...cant really say for my studies though which sucks ass hahahaha, helping my cousin Charlotte update her new blog haha but she cant remember her password nice one ay.
Anyway.....not much to say cause I cant remember them hahahahaha bit blurrr today cause me ish sick:( great time to get sick!!!! I cant believe christmas is next week OMG man!!!!!! I have just noticed that the people I know who is celebrating their b'day this month all start with the letter D...oooooo weird..haha...
Theres this creap that got my number and kept texting and miss calling me...haha so yesterday my cousin David called him and as soon as he heard my cousin speak he put the phone down hahaha.
ummm I fink thats it...FOR NOW....I know heaps more happened, I just cant remember or cant typr it now cause my cousin is reading everything hehe so I gotta jet.

Have a great Holiday everyone.

Merry Christmas & Happy New Year!!!

Happy Birthday to: Cuzy David,

Dian,

Dan

love you all.

xoxo

ciao

2006-12-08T07:08:00.000-08:00

Listening to Train tracks are tatics to tame attacks by Airholes.
Feeling..better

Okays, Thursday was just an ordinary day, nothing much happened cept the pantamine (I fink thats how you spell it hehe) yeah anyways that was hillarious man hahaha this year the teachers did Cinderalla hahaha it was SO SO FUNNY!! OOHHH and we made AWESOME Christmas cards in Math its sooooo cool man hehe.
Okay so, today was pretty fun. Dian and I havent been to Gadong in ages and boi was it fun hehe. School was fun since it was the last day we didnt to anything in class, just mucked around, which was cool. After school, around 3pm, I went to Starmakers, to meet up with MOTA, Dian, Dinesh, Yu Foong and Haz. MOTA recorded 2 songs which we were very awesomely-good hehe, then OMFG Dian and I saw the HOTTEST GUY!!!! OMG man hehe, then we met up with Airholes as well, and saw two hot guys from there as well HAHAHAHAHAHA dont blame us, we just got out of relationships and havent been out for ages hehe, anyways OMG we saw SOOOOOO MANY HOT GUYS *drooools* hehe. After the recording which was around 7:30pm we went to Gadong with the guys, Dian, Izzat, Dan and his gf and I followed Yu Foong to Gadong, I sat in front so I had control of ze muushick muhahahaha hehe, it was fun though, we were all singing along to Sugar, we're goin down by the Fallout Boy, hehe. When we reached Gadong we met up with Eqbal, Mags, Chris, Isa, Nick etc etc etc....hung around the Mall met a few friends that we havent seen in AGES!!! Hung out at Chill ofcourse our fav place hehe, all in all a very relaxing/boy-looking/problem-free(kinda) day. And would love to have another day like that sometime soon hehe.

I cant believe school holidays have begun, after all the counting down and stuff its finally here!! haha. Buuuut Im gonna spend all of it studying cept Christmas eve, day and New Years Day hehe.

Anyways thats it for now, me gonna continue with my revision notes hehehe.

xoxo
ciao

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

See you all next year, this may be the last blog for this year by the way hehe, depends if I have time to write a blog or can be stiffed to hehehe.

LOVE YAZ!!!!

oh i just noticed that my blog colors are Christmas colors hehe.

2006-12-08T06:54:00.000-08:00

Listening to Life at Twenty Two by Airholes
Feeling...better then before I guess.

School today wasn’t so bad, PE was fun cause my team beat most of the other team, cept Mr. Small sucks at teaching PE, and he is so sexist as well, he recorded all the guys when they were warming up but when it cam to the girls he didn’t stupid arse, anyways, Drama was fun I fell so many times AGAIN! But sadly we didn’t get to perform our thingy today so we going to do it tomorrow morning. Music wash fun cause we did jackshit, just watched Mish and Yu Foong in a "Guitar face off" hehe theeeeen we had Malay erge! Malay was ok I was so hyper and did not listen to a word the teacher said haha its just one of those days where I tend to not listen to her hahaha. Dian and her chair interview today...she finks she aint gonna get it...I fink she will:D think positive Dian POSITIVE!!!! hehe.

So after school after Marcus, Adam, David and Dinesh scaring Dian and I. Isa, Dian and I went to Doctor Reynolds to get our navel pierced. When we reached we waited for at least an hour or so and got so nervous/scared, while they called our 'rents to confirm that we are allowed to get it done, then we had to go to The Mall and look for a ring...while we were at the Mall we met David and his rents shopping. We then quickly found a stud, went back to the clinic and pierced it. Dian went first so it was all good, Isa recorded it and would not stop going "OMFG!!! MOTHER HSDGFYGAYTGS@#$@!!!!" I didnt look when Dian got hers done cause I knew I would chicken out, so Dian squeezed my hand and I did the same to her and Isa hehe. After that dum dum dummmm it was my turn, I was so scared hehe, it didnt hurt when he poked the metal thingy and put the ring in, but when he injected my navel to make it numb it hurt like crazy I squeezed my Dian's so hard hahahaha, again Isa recorded it and did his whole "OMFG!!!! WHATTHE OMG!!! MOTHER HJGSDFYGS%^#!#%^&*!!" hehehe, Thanks for the moral support Isa you really made me feel better NOT!!! hehehe, but its all good, I’m glad I did it, and I’m glad Isa and Dian came along if not I would be craping in my pants hehehe. OUCH!!! It’s starting to hurt now:S

Its good to know that he is out of the hospital now, getting better, he emailed me today hehe, good to know he still chats to me even though I was so mean to him hehehe.
Worse bit is he still treats me like we're going out. Erge! I hate it!!

Anyways I’m getting really drugged up with all the pills I had to take gonna sleep I think ay.
That’s it for now guys..till next time!! Take cares

xoxo
ciao

P.S This was suppose to be posted on Wednseday but dunno why it didnt hehe.

2006-12-03T06:20:00.000-08:00

Listening to the raindrops hitting the roof
Feeling............

So my weekend was alright i guess. On Thursday I had to go to Labuan cause I had to go to KK for some family emergency on Friday. So after school on Thursday I had to rush and pack then take the next ferry to Labuan, when I got there I was hanging out with my cousins just chiling when they told me what happened with Zee, so then I went to the Hospital to visit him, and things and been said that I really didnt wanna know. I slept at 3:30am that day. On Friday My cousins and I went to KK we reached in the evening. On Saturday we had a lil time to shop, so I bought a really cute bikini for RM 229.00 which I think is really cheap. Then I found really nice earings in my mirro which someone left for me..before...I slept at 3am that day. On sunday my cousins and I set back to Labuan, when we got back, we rested for awhile, went to the shops then swimming, which I then had to rush to catch the ferry back to brunei, the ferry was packed with people!! And it was so damn unfair cause at the immagration they had 3 lines for Bruneians and 1 line for forginers so we had a huge ass line! so that was MY weekend.

Congrats to MOTA for winning B.O.T.B!

There are so many things I wanna say, but just cant come up with the words to make sense of all this feelings I have, Its as if all my loved ones are getting hurt.Try convincing yourself that it isnt your fault..??? I dont know how to say how I feel.

xoxo
ciao

Maybe being friends is still not enough for me.

"Its as if the story always ends the same, me standing in the pouring rain, crying over the same damn thing."

"Those three words are said to much, they're not enough"

2006-11-28T04:29:00.000-08:00

Listening to My heart.
Feeling, I dont know ask me in a few weeks time nd I'll let you know.

School was fine today, WAS having a great day. Stayed back and watched the Battle of the Bands auditions...saw/heard Mota, We arent all girls (I think thats the band name), Arif's band and some younger grade band(not sure what they are called) had two ice-creams and became hyper haha as per usual hehe.

Maybe some things are just never meant to be..you know what I mean, cause everything that had loved me or love me or anything like that, has always gone away. And your just like "how can someone so close to me let this happen" kinda thing ( i know i am being EMO, well fuck you i dont give a crap).
We were so happy yesterday, you sent me the sweetest testimonial, funny, today was so unexpected.
Maybe they were all right, it was just not meant to be, but how do they know, when they dont know how i feel. hearing you say sorry for something that you were forced to do...well it makes me so damn effing sad. you treat me like nothing happend, but theres just a few things that i cant say, and you cant say anymore.....iono maybe im right..im just not cut-out for this.

Im gonna leave it as that cause i just dont wanna write anymore.

xoxo
ciao

Just as ~~friends~~

"These tears wont stop coming down my face"

2006-11-26T07:45:00.000-08:00

Listening to Superhero by Jane's Addiction
Feeling everything

Why is it that when something happens..the girl is always the one that HAS to say sorry? Well im not gonna cause in stubborn like that hehe.

Well my weekend wash really laid back for once hehe, on Friday we all went to watch West Side Story...it was good....Julie is a really good singer. Then I got home....started chatting then went to sleep round 12am.
On saturday I woke up round 11, watched TV, then the power went off so my cousin Aaron, Jay and I were stuck in the master bed room cause for some strange reason there was power in that room..lucky for me my driver picked me up and I went to Dians. While at Dians, she helped me with my history work, we ate ice-cream and as usual we talked about everything hehe, I left Dians at around 10:30pm close to 11pm, when I got home....came online and 3 guys who I dont know added me...one of them was in Pakistan...verrry weird..so anyways i came online started chatting and only went off around 2:50am close to 3am hehe.
I woke up at 12pm today..had a shower etc etc..had some pasta as my breakfast, lunch and dinner, watched tv, came online and has been since hehe. oh and I finished my history hehe.

Chatted to Zee today...it was good...I feel kinda bad cause I took all my anger out on him hehe, every lil comment he made I made it a big deal hehe, but oh well hehe.

Life has been better for me....well its not as bad as when before..yeah I still have problems but Im taking it day by day, ya know what I mean mate. hehe.
I cant wait till be holidays start....and Im kinda looking forwards to leaving this place as well, just staring a new life, making new friends, its gonna be hard but Im sure I can manage. I dont want to leave my friends here...but I gots to move on (sounds so dramatic and depressings haha) but yeah I cant wait.

Anyways thats it for now. Till next time. Take cares

DAMN I MISS AMELIA!!!:p

xoxo
ciao

The greatest glory in living lies not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall.

-Nelson Mandela-

2006-11-22T06:12:00.000-08:00

The Many Wonderous Ways to Say 'I Love You'~

(ENGLISH) I LOVE YOU

(POLISH) JA KOCHAM CIEBIE

(FRENCH) JE T'AIME

(HINDI) HUM TUMHE PYAR KARTE HAE

(CZECH) MILUJI TE

(SLOVAKIAN) LU'BIM TA

(ITALIAN) TI AMO

(UKRAINIAN) YA TEBE KAHAYU

(GERMAN) ISH LIBE DISH

(CHINESE) WO AI NI

(GREEK) S'AGAPO

(HAWAIAN) ALOHA WAU IA OI

(LITHUIANIAN) TAV MYLIU

(KOREAN) SA RANG HAE YO

(JAPANESE) AI SHI TE RU

(ROMANIAN) TE UBSEC

(BOSNIAN) VOLIM TE

(ALBANIAN) TE DUA

(FILIPINO) MAHAL KITA

(SPANISH) TE AMO

(PORTUGESE) AMO TE

(ARABIAN) ANNAH BE HEBIC

2006-11-20T00:01:00.000-08:00

Listening to the song Razie gave me
Feeling sad, happy & loving, loved

Okays so my weekend was so damn fun besides the sunburn of course hehe, on Friday after my nerve wrecking Malay orals...it went so damn bad I froze at some points cause I didn’t know the Malay words so I said it in English omg man. Anyways after that I left to Labuan. And just as I arrived I had to go for an open house by the beach, it wasn’t really the house they kinda like rented this open place by the beach and yeah...the food was awesome they had everything there…western, Malay, Chinese, Indian and they had satays and those honey chicken which they BBQ in those Malay stalls it was LUSH!! Haha then it started to rain and everyone started panicking haha it wash so funny, anyways later that night I just went for a drive with Razie around Labuan, and when I got back I went to sleep. On Saturday I had to wake up at 6:30!! To get ready to go to the Island. We went to Pulau Papan it was great, we left the jetty at around 7:30 and it took us 30 mins to get to the island. When we got there the island was totally ours omg it was great!! My cousin Cindy and I straight away swam it was so nice cause it was so hot and the water was just right…but poor Cindy she was teaching a friend how to dive and scraped he upper lip between her nose and it started bleeding and she hit her nose as well, on a rock/coral, poor her luckily one of her friend brought a first aid kit hehe. After that incident Cindy and I practically spent the whole day walking around the beach, lying down listening to music and falling asleep or eating hehehe. Man we had so much food, it was unbelievable. We left the Island at around 4pm and while going back I got so wet it was like I swam back instead…oh I got so annoyed hehe. When we got back there were this guys staring at Cindy and I and taking pictures of us and there were like 10 of them so we called Rudy, Cindy’s bf and then they left so it was all cool. When we got home I was sooooooooo SO burnt omg it was unbelievable. So we had a shower and went to the hair saloon. When we got back home we ate and wanted to sleep for half and hour cause we were going out clubbin that night which never happened cause I woke up this morning and was like shit we were suppose to go out hahaha…so like Cindy and I went to sleep around 8pm on sat and woke up at 8am hahaha and like I was wearing my jeans and everything hahaha and while sleeping I could feel heat off my sunburn and Cindy’s sunburn omg it was sooo hot hehe. Then on Sunday Cindy and I watched Entourage, then was joined by another cousin of mine Charlotte and we watched Entourage till 11, where we got ready and went out where I got even more burnt haha… then went to get my ticket back, when home got ready and went to the ferry terminal, where it was PACKED with Bruneians. And omg it was so scary cause when I was on my way back here I fell asleep cause it was bumpy and when I woke up it was so DARK and all I could see was lightning OMG it was scary, and normally we would reach Brunei at 5:30 but today I reached at 6-ish.

Well that’s it folks, till next time, I know you guys cant wait to hear my exciting, wild and wonderful stories hehe.
Xoxo
Ciao

2006-11-06T07:37:00.000-08:00

Listening to the outside world
Feeling confused, in love, confused about love, happy, i really dont know

today was fine im gonna skip all that yeah today at school blah blah blah because im in a crisis HELP! okays im kinda-ish,maybe, not so sure-probably not in relationship with this dude and then another dude came along and we got to know each other really really well and now im having feelings for him as well and he likes me a lot, the weird thing is that he's my cousins friend and has been since he was 16 yes he is around 18, 19, 20 not sure, he would not stop telling me how much he needs me and stuff like that. my question is, is it possible to like both guys...i mean i like the first dude a lot and i also like the 2nd dude a lot so WHAT do i do? the 2nd dude asked me out and i said i would sleep over it and let him know, but what should i really do, i dont want to lose the 1st guy.....and i dont want to lose the 2nd guy either....im so confused i feel like crying.

LOVE IS OVER RATED!!

please help me

xoxo

ciao

till next time

2006-11-02T03:37:00.000-08:00

Listening to some song by kelly clarkson, eating blueberry cheese cake, feeling sick got a migraine.

So how is everyone? hehe man i havent updated my blog for ages. School was okay today i was a bit sick at school so i wasnt in the mood to do anything, poor dian she has to put up with it, (thankish dian) moving on, we only had 7 people in class today omg man hehe.
I chatted to Nyan today, hehe he asked me to visit him when im there, cause he ish gonna be all alone for x'mas, poor him, hehehe. Im like so not in the mood to do anything, its amazing hehehe.
Part of me feel like its my fault, with what is happening to me now, but part of me just doesnt care. Coming home isnt as fun as it used to be as well, i miss being in kindy, where you'd look forward till home time cause you know your rents are waiting for you all happy and shit, with a treat for you, something like that ya know..i really miss that hehe. school and friends are different now.

Feelings comes and Goes??

I have the urge to just run, run until i get so tired i cant move anymore, that what i want to do, take away everything.

Me going to K.K next thursday after school yay, hehe. hokay i really dont know what to right anymore so yeah till next time.

xoxo

ciao

2006-10-23T00:08:00.000-07:00

Listening to my cousins chatting to mark pretendinf to be me (haha)
felling sick but getting better

Oh man its been ages since i've bloged hahaha i have just soooooh busy and tired and sick and and and yeah hahaha. Im at the CC so boring my cousins are chatting to mark pretending to be me and trying to scare him hahahaha omg i fink i have some explaining to do hahahahaha. anyways erge i've been sick for coming two weeks now it sucks coughing sneezing and shuupid fever. gots a head ache now:( anyways iono what to blog about sometimes i dont see the point of blogging because you blog in your feelings on things and people and stuff and they call you emo or a bitch or something so why should i blog about it right? anyways ummm lets see what else part of me wants to end something really great now but part of me doesnt iono....im so confused. bleh so not in the mood to do nething or type ne thing hahahaha.

Man. Utd won wooooooohooooooooooooooooooo liverpool sucks ass!!

anyways im gonna gooooo~ take care ya'll love yaz

xoxo

ciao

untill next time:D

2006-09-20T04:29:00.000-07:00

Oh its been ages since i've bloged anything thats happening in my life and i can tell you ALOT has changed. starting with who i hang out with and stuff and iono some people may think its my fault when they dont know my story they have no fucking idea what i am going through yeah everyone has problems but would they take 1 second to think that maybe some people have worse problems than them. I still dont know what it happening to me..my life...my future i really dont know and right now im living life like theres no tomorrow cuz it may not be..
We all know that peoplem always talk behind other peoples back so why do we get pissed off about it when we know, its human nature so why is it so hard for us to understand that everyone does it. so why??? anyways i have to go more next time hehehe
xoxo
ciao for now

2006-07-09T07:05:00.000-07:00

Listening to complicated by nivian or something like that hehe. Feeling happy love smiley sad hehe.
Ok nothing much happend today. I was suppose to wake up early like around 8 to watch billy at this quiz thing, but of course I didnt haha I woke up at around 12pm surprise surprise hehe so I woke up came online went downstairs got some breakfast came up and put on love actually sat down ate and watched the movie then went to see who was online and he was so I chatted to him then when he went off I went off brush my teeth etc etc then I came online again and he was on so I chatted to him again. After that I just watched tv while chatting. Then went offline had a shower did something so damn shhupid haha dian know what and um yeah haha came online again and I am and have been home alone since I woke up. hehe. So thats it for today nothing inetresting.

Ok im having second thoughts about going to KK but i know that i am going to have fun!! he he I fink I hope....Yeah I know I will hehe.

Ok and yes I really do like him..and its abit weird cuz I have never felt like this so yeah but its all good heh. Man GAH. hehe sorry okays anyways gonna go.

P.S. I may not update my blog for awhile hehe.

xoxo
ciao

2006-07-08T09:06:00.000-07:00

Im listening to some really stupid thing on tv it is hillarious. Feeling good vey happy relaxed just happy.
Another update on whats been happening to moi hehe. Ok so yesterday I put my alarm to wake me up early but of course I didnt haha..so I went to hamish at around 1pm where i met up with david and we were just hanging out waiting for hamish to come when he did he was so shocked HAHAHA he was like wow dude how long was I in the toilet HAHAHA I was like umm you feeling alright hamish haha. So we just bummed around hamishs waitting for yu foong to come. So eventually yu foong came and we got ready and left first we went to david's place to get the song lyrics ooo and I met davids dad dude he has a strong aussie acent haha okays moving on so we left davids and went to izzats. There we met up with izzat and simon and the guys started playing I was the only chick there in a small VERY HOT room with five guys it was cool though the guys are fucking good man and so cuutee aswell when they play hehe. And it was sooo cute when they started playing all the little kids around the neighbourhood came and watched it was soo cute untill I saw a lil kid smoking then I was like OK thats not cool haha. We well the guys finish'd playing then we waited for yu foongs driver to come where simon david hamish and of course yu foong and I [DID I MENTION THE ROOM WE WERE IN WHILE PRACTICING WAS REALLY REALLY HOT]. we got drop'd off at hamishs and i was gonna go online but didnt cuz i was so hungry so yu foong izzat and I walked to the shop and bought crisps man we were so hungry just one bite of that ruffles bbq crisps tasted like heaven hahaha did i mention i was really hungry. So while we were walking back we saw a gay person it was funny cuz the three of us was trying to guess if it was a guy or a girl and hahaha it was just hillarious ok so after everyone had a shower we all left to gadong OMFG we were all squeech'd at the back seat it was sue on hamish's lap me on davids lap and izzat on simons lap man that was the most un-comfy ride to gadong i ever had hahaha but it was fun. as per usual I was like all hyper in the car just to lighten things up abit ye know hahaha so we got to gadong i couldnt stay long cuz i had to go for dinner. So mom picked me up and we went out for dinner at charcoal where we met up with dad mary and billy, after dinner dad had to leave early cuz he had to do somethings at work so mom took us back home and while we were in the car we were so damn loud hyper and talk-a-tive we talked so much and thats when mary and I really got to know each other heh. So we got home I tried to go online but couldnt so mary and I put on when a starnger calls and guess what we didnt even watch it hahaha we started talking and carried on till like 1 close to 2 am we talked and talked looked at pictures then when downstairs and had a mid night snak and we had ben&jerrys ice-cream aswell while talking haha I must admite that we get along more now and we actually have a lot in common so she aint that bad anymore which is awesome we became closer which is weird cuz we never talk'd like how we did last night so yeah its good that we did.Ok so today mary and dad went off to singapore i didnt see them leave cuz i was still asleep heh so i woke up had a movie marathon then had a shower got ready and went out then we crashed at uri's place order'd heaps of pizza from fratinis sat in front of telly watching fast and furious tokyo drift while eating pizza it was awesome hehe then came back and came online where I chatted to him and he promised to talk to me tommorow cuz he didnt have time just now and where he also said he'd get me something from UK [i wonder if he will or not ay?] so yeah im uber happy hehehe that just made my day so perfect hehe. so yeah thats it for now peoples i know my life is like so damn interseting but untill next time ay.

P.S. I stopped sneaking out [for some reasons]

xoxo
ciao

2006-07-06T08:28:00.000-07:00

Im listening to sexy love by ne-yo and the sound of cars passing by. Feeling happy missing someone hyper-ish sad and sick-ish hehe.

Ok another update on my oh so interesting life that you all wanna know cuz im cool like that hehehe ok so tuesday i just bum around at home, got woken up by mish's text which was around 1pm hehe did the usual shower eat etc etc..On wednesday I was suppose to wake up early and go to the beach with dian for a jog swim etc ect but being us we didnt wake up hahaha I woke up round 1pm cuz of hamish's text againg hahaha man talk about nocturnal hahaha so then I just bummed around at home again hehehe sorry i couldnt go out mish.

And today woke up round 2 cuz i stay'd up watching the game and i can not believe it portugal lost how can omg i hate those french people all my teams are out brazil, argentina i just hope portugal beats germany and italia beats france!! ok moving onn mary came today from perth which is good. didnt do much came online chatted with him the had dinner and so on and so forth hahaha sorry just lazy to type everything out hehe was suppose to go to church class but didnt hahahahaha.

Im going to KK on monday OMFG im so nervous he he. then when I come back going to kuching not sure when though then going to singapore not sure when as well hahahaha.

Im currently chatting to dian mark chris and this guy from jis that i have never met and i have no idea how he got my email but yeah he seems cool haahaha and they arnt giving me time to
write ma blog stupid arse. Ok so 2moro im gonna go to mish's then he is bringing me to izzats cuz they are having band prac then he ish bring me to gadong hehehe and we'r just gonna chill hehehehehe.

sorry elle but i dont think i can sleepover yours 2moro and i cant sleep over dians aswell cuz mary is here hope you have fun though. hee.

H'okays im gonna go

xoxo
ciao

2006-07-05T08:31:00.000-07:00

CAREFULL THE FOLLOWING PICTURES MAY CAUSE YOU TO LAUGH TILL YOU DROP!! OTHER THEN THAT THE PICTURES ARE SOOOO CUTE!!!

I hope you all enjoyed the pictures hehe dont you just love them esp the last picture elle is sooooooooo cute!! hehe

2006-07-04T08:23:00.000-07:00

______My life______

[*] they call me: Cynthia
[*] also: Cyn-Cyn/Cinney/Cyn
[*] sex: Female
[*] birthday:09 09 90

_______Right now_______

[*] feeling: happy, lost, loved,
[*] Listening to: some chick band on tv
[*] doing: watching tv, chatting and doing this questionair cuz dian wants me too hehe
[*] Talking to: dian and bianca
[*] Craving for: a vanilla latte
[*] thinking of: someone
[*] hating: no one

_______Love_______

[*] love: what about it
[*] first love: someone hehe dian knows whom
[*] love or lust: both
[*] true or false: true

_______Miscellaneous_______

[*] can you swim: yes
[*] whats your most embarasing moment?: when i got so wasted and i did something really stupid [and my friends wont let me forget it]
[*] what are you scared of: spiders, roaches[i HATE them] scared of small spaces getting hurt abbo chicks they scare the shit out of me!! umm i cant think of anything else so yeah
[*] do you like tomatoes?: yes
[*] how many TVs in d house?: ermz 4
[*] how many telephones?: 3 house pones 5 mobiles

______Your looks______

[*] Hair color: brownish blackish rum
[*] Eye color?: brown
[*] Height: 5ft 7 i think
[*] Do u wear contacts or glasses?: both
[*] Do u have any piercings?: yes

______Just lately______

[*] How are you today?: fine
[*] What pants are you wearing?: im wearing a skirt
[*] What shirt are you wearing right now?: a blue F1 one my dad got me when he went to watch the race
[*] What does your hair look like at the moment?: staright and soft. PERFECTTO
[*] Last person you met?: billy
[*] Last conversation?: was with bianca about our holidays
[*] Last Dream you can remember: ooo cant say

______More about you______

[*] What are the last four digits of your cell?: 7401
[*] If u were a crayon, what color would you be?: a mixture of black and hot pink
[*] Where do you shop the most?: surf shops
[*] How many kids do you want to have?: 2
[*] Favorite Shampoo?: dove
[*] Do you have your own cell phone plan?: um...
[*] Have you ever broken/sprained/fractured a bone?: yep
[*] Who do you dream about: why do you wanna know :P
[*] Who do you tell your dreams?: depends what my dream is about.
[*] Who's the loudest friend you have?: jollyne hehe
[*] Who's the quietest friend?: sue [im not that close to her but she is the quietsest]
__________Have you ever__________

[*] Wanted to kill someone?: no and dont plan too
[*] Broken the law?: ermz...iono yeah i have ;)
[*] Tried to kill yourself?: no cuz thats just plain stupid
[*] Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: hahahahhahaha yes

2006-07-03T08:08:00.000-07:00

Im listening to the AC man its loud haha feeling happy and happy hehe. Ok another up date since I havnt been on for awhile ok so on friday i just stay'd at home on saturday I went to yu foongs party and that was really fun it was like a nice chilling&relaxing night we just chilled drank and stuff like that ya know! George Mish Sue David Dinesh Chris K. Ashleigh Haz Mert and of course Yu Foong and I were there haha anyway OMG the guys are so damn funny george dinesh and mert omg they are soooo funny when gone man I love it!! hehe. I wont go into detail on what happend cuz im just evil like that hehehe but I will tell you that it was fun:D
So today I went to gadong with dian it was a nice chilling&relaxing girls day out thing untill chris came haha. We did see a cute guy but damn he was with he's mom hahahaha and and oh hahahaha I did this joke thingy to azim hehe funny ass!! and um thats basically it for today I aint gonna go into detail on it cuz I cant be stiffed too ehehe.

SUMMER HOLIDAYS HAS BEEN FUCKINGLY AWESOME!!!

sorry just had to say that.

Dude im watching punk'd and the amount of swear words being used is fucking amazing the whole thing is beep what are you beep i didnt beep how could you beep what the beep i wasnt beep what happend you beep what the beep where is my beep dude what beep dude beep man where is my beep beep beep beep beep beep you beep what are you doing beep you beep you beep liar beep beep beep you mother beep are you stealing me shit beep beep beep no beep beep beep you beep beep beep. Dude the amount of beeps in that was so damn annoying sheeesshh why do people have to fucking swear man HAHA.

okays so dian might be right abt something and iono. oh curse you dian why oh why must you be right.=p

anyways gonna go

xoxo_
ciao_

2006-06-30T08:20:00.000-07:00

Im listening to the chicks singing on MTV making the band, not that bad actully hee.
Feeling happy, sad, hyper, blah de blah de blah hehehe.
Ok just a short update on what has been happening.
OK so we had our sports day on wednesday, that was a good day, I did get pissed off for awhile though cuz I came second in swiming and I was out cuz I touched the end with one hand instead or two stupid ay. Then i got told of by ~~mrs.fat cow~~ mrs.sanderson cuz I wore shorts and a tank top after swiming while waitting for by driver to come, can I ask WHATTHEHELL is wrong with that, there were chicks wearing short mini skirts and she didnt tell them off, mr.canterford came and talked to me and he didnt tell me off. stupid ~~bitch~~ moving onnn nothing special happend on thursday I went to church class and they were talking abt teen drinking hahahaha that was so funny. And then friday came which is today:P ok so today is the last day of school and the last day of us being in yr 10, man I cant believe we'r gonna be in yr 11 next year, and this time next year I will be leaving damn man!! im so scared. and as usual there were heaps of people crying,leaving, taking pictures etc etc.. gonna miss the people that are leaving, and yeah there were was all the hugging, course I hugged heaps of people as well and dian and I said good by to our lockers..its soo sad *forces self to fake cry* hehe and yeah. Then after the hugging I had to go to moms place had lunch [huge ass lasagna] it was fandatastic!! hee. Then I took off to go to Kuala Lurah with my moms worker andrew and sean thay are fucking awesome hahaha. We were speeding blasting the music out loud so fucking awesome and oh gosh just the stuff they did was fucking hillarious hahahaha. Then I came home fell asleep, watched tv and yeah same ole same old. hee. Oh yeah I forgot the ~~lovely,wonderful,uber cool,fantastic~~ mary is coming on thr 6th of july I hope I wont be here when she does hahahaha she's so fucking perfect!!
Ok so that was just a short summery of what has happened.

....>>>> HAPPY 16 BUTTDAY YU FOONG<<<<....
Hope you have a WONDERfuckingFUL 16 and sowies I couldnt make it but I will for the next do not fret :D love yaz.

thats it for now.
xoxo_
ciao_

2006-06-28T04:11:00.000-07:00

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2006-06-26T07:33:00.000-07:00

Im listening to some emo love song playing on my ipod and I cant be stuffed to change it *so far cant reach* anyways feeling emotionless, not that im emo I just iono feel like theres nothing to look forward too,no where special to go, no one special to see, no one special to hang out with no point in going to school that kinda thing you know.
School wasnt bad today it was actully pretty good we did nothing and I mean nothing!! so yeah. thats basically it for school. Oh rents are back. they came back today morning and yeah.
Today has been so dull and everyone ish so down i guess it kinda goes well with the weather cuz it has been raining the whole freaking day oh wells.
Iam currently doing my english but it just doesnt seem to be finishing stupid ass work. and my printer doesnt work so im gonna have to print it at school which i know i wont cuz i'l probably forget about it and yeah you know how it goes.
Oh and yesterday at sunday splash a kid died, scary dude, apperently he was unconscience and he drowned cuz he was under the bouncer and no one saw him freaky ass man, to think that a place brings so much joy can bring death. hmmm this is like the 2nd kid that died there ssscccaarryyy!

"You treat me like I'm your Girlfriend and thats Not what I want"

I was so close to telling him that when we were chatting but I dunno why I didnt, Why did I hold back and didnt tell him I dont know. Its complicated and he had to talk to me about how he didnt wanna go out with this chick cuz of well...me. Why? I mean im not that great. Well I am but you know what I mean hehe. Guys they are so complicated and they say we are stupid assess. I want it to end but then again I dont, I want him here but then again I dont cuz I know he's here....im not gonna say but yeah. GAH. gdhsfgfyghgasktyfatytsafkhfsaytfhsadftashgsftfkhdsFUCKTHIS.

"But I really love you, I do"
Why do they do that oh gawd it pisses me off. yyfygitfaihflisdafuysdfndsPISSMEFUCKINGOFF but yeah I mean shhhheeeesssshhh I dont even know what to say. Its weird and hard and complicated and sad but why do I feel happy and loved and free and and like my problems are far far away when im chatting or smsing or talking to him on the phone. It pisses me off how its like that.
anyways im gonna sign off.
xoxo_
ciao_

"I will always love you"
Think about that.

2006-06-25T03:15:00.000-07:00

Theres a DIFFERENCE between talking EMO and saying DEEP STUFF!

Im listening to the phone ring, should i answer it? nah i'll leave it should I join in with the gossip and the problems that they have and have to tell me, just not now i think. Feeling like I really wanna get out of here, it's not that i hate this place but i dunno maybe cuz im so used to walking or moving away when everything goes wrong and thats what I wanna do now.

Yesterday wasnt bad it was good actully i bought TONS of movies orderd pizza sat infront of the telly watched the movies i got and just stuffed my self with food oh it was great, after like months not having junk food i got a tummy ache but it was so fucking worth it hee. Anyways rents arent coming back today, they are coming back tommorow ~~YES~~ i mean ohhh hehehe but yeah they arent here till tommorow. I cant wait till the HOLIDAYS man im like so excited oh man i wish it was tommorow, just knowing that im gonna leave brunei gets me so excited hahahaha *no offence to this place/anyone or anything but yeah* holidays here i come!! hahaha

moving onnnn chris is back wooptefuckingdodaday i am ~~so happy~~ i mean *sigh* at least its just one more week which i am gonna be missing for some of it hehehe hamish is back from scotland today, he asked me to go to scotland with him in december and i wanna go just to shop and see that HOT guy hehehehe and bully hamish of course hehehe he's aunt has a cat named charlie hahahahahahaha.

I might be missing yu foongs party but i think its safe to say its ok there always parties to go to hehe. Anyways I WANNA DRIVEEEEEE!!!!!! sorry that was so fucking random hahahahahaha i just felt like saying that hee. Ermz what else what else....okays i have nothing i wanna say/type some deep stuff but i wont cuz people will go this chick is so emo.

Theres alot of questions that i wanna ask and want answers for but i have no idea how to say it GAH.

Gtg.

xoxo_

ciao_

2006-06-23T21:08:00.000-07:00

Im listening to the sound of people talking downstairs, the tv and bikes passing by fast. Feeling like crap im foooking ssssiiiccckkk. Gots the fever, sore throat, sneez's,cough's and headache *snif snif*
So yesterday was the award thingy i got an award for PE which is weird but yeah dian got an award for ART hehehe we are just SOOO smart hehe. After that dian and I went to the airport to see ezy off and there we met up with beb and azim we all said our goodbyes to him, which is sad another friend left. As you know yesterday morning was the soccer match Brazil vs Japan, Japan scored the first goal but of course Brazil won it was 4-1.

Then i was ~~forced~~ to go to jp with my cousins. *sigh* I fink thats it for now toooooo ssshhhiiicccckkk to type ne'thing ehehe.
Byeees ya'll
Xoxo_
Ciao_

2006-06-22T03:46:00.000-07:00

Im listening to the sound of raindrops dropping hard and fast towards the ground its so awesome. Feeling pain cuz of my hand/arm hehehehe. So today wasnt that bad we had pe and greg threw the soft ball right to my hand oh my fuuytgsdjfhtyisdhgosh it hurts so much. heheheh ermz i am currently home alone hahahaha its awesome blasting the muuusick out loud hehehe. Oh tommorow is the awards thingy i dun really wanna go for it but i kinda have too damnit! hehe. I fink im gonna like stop sneaking out now iono hahahhaha im just going with the flow these days. Im still under house arrest its day seven hehe. Oh brazil is playing today/tommorow morning at 3am against japan wonder who will win hahaha.
Yesterday we had our ict exam man i already know i made a mistake ssshhhheeeesssshhh man. I read david's song its so cool hehehe.

Adam i am so gonna get your shoes you just wait the war is on hahahahaaha.

Anyways gonna sign off hehe.
P.S. coccollin [i fink thats how you spell he's name] is SO damn HOT he looks like heath ledger from 10 things i hate about you. OMG so HOT!!!!

xoxo_
ciao_

2006-06-19T07:18:00.000-07:00

Im listening to the noise coming from the tv, the ac and the cars passing by outside real fast, how I wish I was in one of them right now. To go so fast that you dont care whats happening feeling the rush, the freedom and the wind just blowing through you hair and your just thinking how fucking awesome is this or im fucking free you cant do anything to stop me now. "Living life on the fast lane" as they say, but yeah I wanna do that so badly.
Today wasnt bad just a normal day, school come home sleep shower watch tv chat hehehehe. Oh ezy came by after school though to give dian her handbag.
I finally told someone about me, the real me, and I am so glad, I feel better but theres still things I have to do. I wanna start over, my whole life start everything, to forgive and forget about everything that has happened. And im glad im gonna. That means leaving some people behind and bringing some people with me but i dont think i would be leaving that much people behind.
Anyways there's so many people leaving, and brunei is getting to me, I love everyone here and all i just wanna leave so damn bad. If I stay I will be at Jis. So I have to decide if I wanna stay or go and I really wanna go.Iono man.
Day four of my house arrest going well actully, parents wont be here on thursday,friday, saturday and maybe sunday. They are going to KK on wednesday hehehe.
Anyways im gonna sign off.
Nites,
xoxo_ciao_

2006-06-16T07:14:00.000-07:00

Listening to the quite outside and behind blue eyes by limpbizkit feeling like i dunno how i feel emotionless i guess.
Amelia's party last night was fucking awesome. got so wasted as usual. dian slept over at mine then we ninjad and yeah just read dians blog for more info abt the party. We got back round 3:30-4am then went to bed. We then woke up for school and my mom came upstairs she wanted to talk to me. and you know it she found out we sneak out. im in so much shit right now. Im under house arrest till i have no idea when. and yeah. Im not gonna blog abt what i did and stuff cuz i just dont feel like it, but i am gonna blog abt how i feel and it may be abit emo.
Last night is the last time i'm gonna ninja i think. Im already in so much shit and my reports are so bad. I just feel like giving up. iono. anyway i dont wanna say too much. Im gonna go jump off a building or something hahahaha joking i would never do that.

Nites people love yaz.

xoxo_ciao

2006-06-11T08:51:00.000-07:00

Im listening to the sound of water being rushed, and yet it sounds so calm and relaxing. Thinking of what had happened back then, and how weird it was that we both thought about the same thing, about what happend to us. How it could have been so much more. The feeling of being rushed, complete, confuse and happy at the same time. Because you gave me advice like no other.
Well this weekend has been fun, On friday dian and amelia came over to swim/sunbath and bake elle a birthday cake,which we did but it got burned and when we tried to fix it, it became worse so we ended up just leaving it at my place hahaha. We went to elle's party hahaha when we reached we got the address wrong so we ended up at some one's house muhamad i fink he's name was, but luckily he knew lane and elle or else we'd be so damn fucked. The party was fun. Towards the end I got so drunk, I mixed and drank so fast that i got so drunk so fast it was not funny. I got sick and yeah.
Then on saturday dian, amelia and I were meant to go to labuan but we didnt cuz we over slept and miss the ferry twice. After elle's we were meant to meet up with them again cuz I couldnt sleep over but I was so gone i passed out. Dian slept over amelia's. So when we missed our ferry amelia came with dian,picked me up and we went for lunch at the Kota Batu yatch club, where we talked and ate, me having a bad hang over didnt eat much, and i started to panic and still is cuz i lost my wallet, some one stole it, ironicly it wasnt just by wallet that was missing lane's wallet was missing too. So I'm like so dead, I havent told my parents yet and don't know how to, I'm like so scared. So after lunch we went to Gadong. It was so quite, no one was there practically, we just hung out for awhile and then went home with amelia, dian and I slept over amelia's, there we started drinking at round 10-ish I think. Amelia invited a few guys over aswell, ezy, beb and azim. We were just at amelia's drinking dancing and stuff. Then woke up today at round 1 i fink by dian, went to the yatch club for lunch round 3, amelia had to leave early to pick up her sister beulah so dian and I waited but my mom picked us up.
Then mom had a bbq at our's with a few ppl, and that was it basically. Anyways I gtg

xoxo_
ciao_

2006-05-31T07:40:00.000-07:00

Im listening to the world outside my house its so quiet and still in here, and outside is so noisy and everything is moving so fast. Feeling troubled, happy, hyper can you feel all of that at the same time.
I've had the best holidays, sneaking out, sleeping over, drinking hehehehe, it was good and i cant believe we have school tomorrow man whatthefuck but at least its only tomorrow cuz i aint gonna go to school on friday:D
Hehehehe adam is telling me how to keep my compuper safe and i fink he's getting annoyed haahahaha.
OH ewwwwww everyone is telling me really gross stuff that i DONT wanna know ew ew ew ew ew efuckingw why do ppl tell me this ewwww man eww, im like gonna get nightmares or something.

ok so blog is where you write what ever you feel and NO ONE can SAY ANYTHING right cuz thats how you feel. If thats what we'r suppose to do then why dont we? why are we so scared of what people will say or thing abt it? cuzs this is the only place where you can free your mind and say whatever you want right? or wrong? anyways i actully have nothing much to say thats so weird ay, normally i do.hmmmmmm.
I cant wait till next month man i have so many parties to go to its so cool!:D

anyways im gonna sign off
xoxo_
ciao_

2006-05-28T06:58:00.000-07:00

Omg work today was sooooo....gah. Dian and Mags came over yesterday and slept over. then we were woken up by dians loud laughter because of isa. he was drunk and called dian it was hillarious he sounded so cute hehehehe and like all the things he said was so damn funny hahaha, that boy is so cute when he's drunk. hahahaha. after the call we all went back to sleep. got woken up round 10 had to rush to work ahahahaha, that lucky ass kid man he's present were huge ass! and he's only one. he even had he's name printed on the balloons what the hell right. dian and i was in charge of the games and stuff. it was so..bleh i had a headache well i still had my hangover so yeah. but other then that it was fine. poor mags she had to stand outside at the ice-cream place and all the children wanted ice-cream and her hand was all sticky and shit poor her man. hehehe. im so glad we dont have school tomorrow tuesday and wednesday man. i can sleep in and just bum around the house.which is so great.
Tomorrow mags and i are going over to dians and i might sleep over. and if we do i might ninja. i might. hehehehehe.
Oh gawd things with him man fuck man. gawd its like..iono how to say it but yeah. arge it just pisses me off in a way hehehe but im not pissed off at him hehehe.
okays im gonna sign off.
xoxo_
ciao_

Beauty is in the eye of the holder.

2006-05-27T07:59:00.000-07:00

Omg last night was so fucking awesome! we went to gadong first was suppose to watch a movie but didnt. hahahaha it was so funny all the guys were with moosy and us girls [amelia, dian, mags, elle] was with billy and chris. we were just hanging out chilling talking stuff like that you know how it goes hahahaha. And omg hahaha while we were at chill 3 guys passed by and one of them looked really hot he had like dark shaggy hair and stuff really skater kinda guy and like when we went upstairs to meet the guys we saw the 3 guys again they were in the cd shop hahahaha so we when in there and were talking abt them hahaha they had one of their mom there with them hahahaha dian amelia and i couldnt stop lauging and elle was like whatthe i know them hahahah so we left the cd shop to see the guys[hamish and them] and like we saw the 3 guys again so amelia and i were like go go go get them to david and chris hahahaha it was so fucking funny and the guy actully came to see us and elle was like hey tom haha he's name is tom and like omg man then he walked away and just then adam came and amelia and i were like go dude go get him again and ask him to join us so and adam didnt know what was going on so he was like ok i will and like him chris and dian went to get tom again and fuck man when he came amelia straight away looked at the tv so i was like errrrrrrrr hey and looked away hahahah the poor dude then he left cuz chris was sitting where we wanted him to sit hahaha fuck man amelia and i cldnt stop laughing hahahaha. But that wasnt the awesome bit. I slept over at dians and yes you guessed it we ninjad. hehehehe i cant remember much but i do know that it was fucking awesome. first we were waiting for dians mom to go to bed and it took her ages. and like when she did we straight away got ready and like we left the house round 1am and like when we went out and izzat he's uncle and amelia was there waiting for us so like we stopped by the shop to get some soda and candy. I cant remember much so yeah but what i do remember is knocking down the bong under the table cuz i was so wasted and like amelia and i was just laughing our asses off then i was playing tekkan with izzats cousin and uncle[the uncle is 26 btw] anyways i was playing that with them and i totally kicked their asses esp izzats cousin with he's uncle it was like i'll win then he will then i will kinda thing hahahaha, amelia was going that she's a pro at the game so i played with her and i totally beat her hahahaha it was so funny, oh and my joke that made amelia laugh till she cried hahaha cuz amelia was going we are gonna get so wasted untill we O.D. and like the guys would be like shit helping us and dian would be like no leave them they want it and like we'r on the floor so i was like this is so cool [by that i mean O.D.-ing on the floor shaking] hahahaha amelia laughed so damn much we all did then dian just stop and goes thats not funny hahahah but amelia and i just kept laughing, and hahahahaha while the guys were playing tekkan amelia and i thought we were hallucinating we were like
me: amelia do you hear that or is it just me?
amelia: yeah man i hear that too what is it?
me: its the song it keeps on going lick you up and down, lick you up and down,
amelia: i know man fuck
me: are we hallicinating man
amelia: i think so man fuck
and like izzats uncle and cousin was just laughing at us hahahaha so mean and another thing i remember is amelia and i wanting to pee really bad so we stopped by the road so we cld pee at the bushes but instead we like fell over and like got sucked in by the bushes and just as we step out dian was like watch out for the snakes so be became paranoid and was like the snake man the snake fucking got us man omg we were coverd with grass and water and stuff it was so gross so we didnt get to do it. izzat was like can you girls wait 5 mins then you can pee so we were like yeah ok oh fuck man it was not 5 min it was like fucking half an hour man and we had to go so bad. when we reached at the house to pick up izzats driver and opposite the house theres a hill well not even hill but at that time it felt like a fucking mountain hahahaha and like we were trying to get down and amelia falls down then i fall but we got to take a piss and like after that we tried to climb up but we cldnt we just kept on laughing and falling over, then like izzat came out of no where up the mountain and was like you girls stop laughing and get up so we were like shhhh then start laughing again hahahaha and like we climb up and fell down again amelia hit her head and i hit my arm dude it hurts so fucking much we finally got out coverd in mud and just when in the car. after that i have no idea what happend i dont even remember going home. hahahaha one fucking crazy night man.
My ass and arm hurts so much and i still have my hang over and its like 11 something at night. oh dude some night man we were suppose to meet up with hamish and them but we didnt hahaha.
Omg 2moro is gona be...hope it goes well and i really hope they wont stop sunday splash man it so fucking awesome apart 4rm adam lane and chris m. pushing me off hahahaha, but yeah man i hope they dont.
anyways me gonna sign off sleepy hehehe.
xoxo_ciao_

2006-05-25T18:19:00.000-07:00

Ehehehehe me at school waitting for music exam which starts at 10 sigh. anyways we just came back from the shop. to claim our seat from the yr 8 girls they are such bitches i hate them apart from jess and miriam they are cool 4 yr 8 hehehehe. anyways last night he was smsing me like at 12:00 and omg i hate it how he isnt here he's like so perfect but he aint here piss me off man gawd he was telling me how he had a fight with he's parents because of he's sister so he just walked out of the house. and i was like wow dude that must be hell of a fightt and poor him. erge and in the end he was like im so glad i know you i miss you so much i love you i really do and im like WHAT ahh you just had to tell me this now when ur there and im here. $*@!#& stupid bastard! nah he's not but still man sheeesh. me sitting next to hamish and i can hear the music SO loud hahahhaa and he just got told off cuz he's phone rang and a teacher is here and she thinks we are having class but we arnt. hahahahha.
Ahhh what the hell man why did he have to do that i was like already getting over him and like he does that again! this is like the 4th time he said this to me and like i would go for him but he's like so fucking far away. gosh it pisses me off and like he knows that stupid bastard!
hahahahaha anyways moving on exam gona start in like few mins im so fucked! i have no idea what im gona do for music! im so dead. oh wells another exam i failed hahahhahaha.
but the good thing is that i might be going to gadong today in like ages. i havent been at gadong for ages its amazing hehehehe.
anyways gona sign off now :D
till next time ppl :D
xoxo_ciao_

2006-05-25T06:48:00.000-07:00

Omg exam today was so....well actully it wasnt bad malay was so damn boring my ass got so numb sitting there waiting for the exam to end. our malay exam ended at 10:30 and started at 8:00. so i was sitting there for 2 hrs and 30 min my gosh man. i hate it. i finish'd my exam like round 9:15 so i fell asleep, i woke up and it was only 9:39-ish so i went back to sleep i woke up and it was like nearly ten. i was so damn bored i was like just looking around the room playing with the sand nest to me, well i was disturbing the geo stuff and like 10 mins before the exam ended everyone was staring at the clock waiting for the exam to finish it was so funny even the teacher was laughing at us hahahaha. and like it was so close to 10:30 the teacher was like thats close enough right and everyone was like YES! so the teacher was like ok then you guys can go oh dude hahahaha everyone practically like ran out of the room hahahaha. i was so happy it ended cuz my ass was like getting numb sitting there man. that was the longest exam ever man. oh and history OMFG my phone rang cuz my driver sms me and it wasnt switched off, nd i didnt know so my phone rang and rang cuz my sms ringtone is long. and like mr.elrick take my phone outside on the floor and just leaves it there, closes the door and said whoever's phone that is you can get it from me after the exam dian and i was like SHIT SHIT FUCK SHIT FUCK hahahaha and it was so funny dian and i were talking like through the whole exam hahahah yeah so after the exam dian and i went to see mr.elrick to get my phone back, he was like oh its your phone and i was like yeah can i have it back and he was like no cuz i dont have it. its with mrs.sanderson. i've been to mrs.sanderson heaps of times to not care anymore hahaha so i went to see her and she was like oh its you hahahah i was like yeah can i have my phone back please and like she started screaming at me going NOT ONLY DID YOUR PHONE RING BUT YOU HAD IT WITH YOU and i was like what! no didnt i left in to the table with everyone else's phone and she was like oh well mr.elrick said you had your phone and i was like NO i didnt i left it on the table like everyone else i just didnt know it was switched on thats all. omg hahaha mrs.sanderson was like oh well if that happend in the real exam you would have failed! dont do it again. i was like ok i wont and she gave my mobile back and i just left. what the fuck man mr.elrick such a stupid bastard! gawd some people man. mr.elrick is such a liar man. but im happy i have my phone back and like when he took my phone in he was reading it i was like what the fuck man!

other than the exam everything was fine hahaha i went to church today being the good girl that i am. after that we went to super save and i met up with ice uri mel nick and nigel hahahaha it was so funny all the moms were doing the shopping and all the kids were like running around and stuff it was so funny hahahaha and thats like our new hang out man hahahahah super save. and like ice and i became our annoying selves and started chasing each other around super save and everyone was like i dont know them and we were all so loud as well hahahahah it was so cool everyone met up at super save. hahahahaha.

oh i cant wait for elle's birthday party its gona be awesome man. cant wait i fink its gona be like a mini rave hehehehe awesome! oh music exam 2moro im so fucking dead! anyways gona sign off hehehehe

xoxo_ciao_

2006-05-24T00:59:00.000-07:00

Oh my gosh exam exam exam thats all i hear nowadays its making me so nervous hehehe. anyways havnt been on this 4 ages!! exam are going ok-ish. and im glad there aint no drama going on this time. well not serious ones or ones that im in. I kinda dont want exams to finish cuz if it does we wont be able to leave school whenever we want and back to lessons which bore me so fucking much.
Omg hahaha the funniest thing happend to me last night. My dad, Billy and i went out for dinner at charcoal and omfg i saw this really hot guy and like cuz my dad was there and he found out my mom is the manager there we/he didnt do much all we were doing were LOTs of eye contach and like he kept on staring and smiling at me and stuff. yeah and after that like after eatin and stuff we were on our way back and suddnely our car stoped for awhile then it kept on moving then it was like getting slower so my dad pulled over and just as we stop'd at the side the car died. so we wait for awhile then try to start the car and we kept on doing this of a long time and the car still wouldnt start so my dad called the guy fix our car and he was SO late and u know it was raining, the raing was getting heavier and i had to go to the loo really bad and like we couldnt do anything well i couldnt do anything and we stoped right in front of the japenese embaseder's place and they had some water thingy outside where our car was parked and i had to go to the loo more omg it was hell. i had to go so bad then my mom came and picked us up and we were waiting for the guy to come and im like why why arnt we moving kinda thing but after awhile we went home cuz i kept on complaining. hehehe some night hahahaha. what happened was that water went into the fuel thingy thats why it wouldnt start properly. stupid water hahaha.
anyways i wld tell you what happend during the science prac exam today but i cant be stiffed to so i wont, but if you want to go to the kampon-randomization one and read it:D

anyways me gona sign off [OHHHHH MY NEW WORD heheheh]

Xoxo_ciao_

2006-05-05T22:43:00.001-07:00

So yesterday was a very interesting day for dian and i hehe. we came back after school CLEAN dian's old room[yes i actully clean'd it with her] the we drew stuff on the wall, we did the laundry as well. we did all of that and still had time to do our nails and get ready for hamish party. It was so funny when we got there cuz no one knew that we were going exp 4 dinesh hahaha hamish was like OMG u guys came kinda thing hahaha it was so funny. and like when we got there everyone was drunk so dee and i had to like take care of them and like clean up and stuff omg its hard work!! hahaha. but the best peron was david when he's drunk omg he's so cute!! hahaha he's like a little kid its SO cute hehehe ke pet on trying to bite me and like he was holding on to m,y leg cuz he didnt want me to leave haha and he was singing hahahaha. and like when we got there there was no more food left so we were just eating chips and stuff hahaha but it was fun!! and yeah fun night.i didnt drink much only had like 2 or 3 cans. omg adam hahaha he drank and got tipsy hahaha its so funny he gets all horny and touchy when he's tipsy hahaha stupid boy. dude roslee drunk ish not funny he's kinda scary when he's drunk dude seriously. and hahaha everyone was so funny.

and today we bake a cake hehehe a mud cake cant wait to try it hehehe.

anyways gtg shower hehehe will tell more laters:D
xoxo_
ciao_

2006-05-05T22:43:00.000-07:00

So yesterday was a very interesting day for dian and i hehe. we came back after school CLEAN dian's old room[yes i actully clean'd it with her] the we drew stuff on the wall, we did the laundry as well. we did all of that and still had time to do our nails and get ready for hamish party. It was so funny when we got there cuz no one knew that we were going exp 4 dinesh hahaha hamish was like OMG u guys came kinda thing hahaha it was so funny. and like when we got there everyone was drunk so dee and i had to like take care of them and like clean up and stuff omg its hard work!! hahaha. but the best peron was david when he's drunk omg he's so cute!! hahaha he's like a little kid its SO cute hehehe. and like when we got there there was no more food left so we were just eating chips and stuff hahaha but it was fun!! and yeah fun night.i didnt drink much only had like 2 or 3 cans. omg adam hahaha he drank and got tipsy hahaha its so funny he gets horny when he's tipsy hahaha stupid boy. dude roslee drunk ish not funny he's kinda scary when he's drunk dude seriously. and hahaha everyone was so funny.

and today we bake a cake hehehe a mud cake cant wait to try it hehehe.

anyways gtg shower hehehe
xoxo_
ciao_

2006-05-04T21:27:00.000-07:00

Ok so 2day ish hamish's buttday its sad we wont be ale to go cuz dian and i will be going to labuan for the weekend. but im sure they will have as much fun with whoever shows up. it'd be great to go but sowies mish we cant. next time kays:D hehehe. hahaha okays yesterday was funny dian and i were meant to go 4 thursday class but we were late so we skip'd it. went to the stalls and had sumfink to eat and drink we chated alot aswell u know how we do it..hahaha then we walk back to church and we went in the church and lighted all the candles hahaha and we "prayed" for awhile then when were sitting outside waiting for everyone to come out"we were hiding behind a tree" our teacher saw us. mahn did we get busted but we came up with a good excuse hahaha which was true we just twicked it a little hehe and yeah then we just hanged round there till we had to go home hahaha. omg it was soo funny aswell haha and dian and i heard this joke its SO funny. seriously it is its SO funny you cant stop laughing hahahaha if u wana know u have to come up to dian and i to hear it cuz it just makes the joke even MORE funny hahahaha. anyways i cant wait till 2moro u shall find out sometime next week kekeke.

Its so weird talking to him know "dian knows what im talking abt" it is its one of those things where u dont mention to ppl hahaha. but yeah we'l see how it goes.

kays my blog is really random but who cares cuz im just so cool like that hahaha.

omg sunday splash was SO fun but i hate lane chris and adam they were the one's that pushed me the most seriously like after the 10th time u get push'd down u get really tired and stuff and i have SO many brusis, like round my leg its like blue/black patches hahaha nd near my knee ish the worst i got rope burn and it hurts so fuckng much like seriously its not funny it hurts so damn much. but it was fun "trying" to puch everyone down well chris and adam more like. next time i'l be the one pushing them of hahaha not them heheh[well if i can that is] i'll become buff hahahaha.

OMG our mocks are comeing up in like a few weeks *panic* im so scared im gona fail. and like
im leaving next year and i dont want to:'( and yeah hopefully i'l go to perth with bianca cuz we like planed everyting already hehehe we'r just cool like that hahaha.

anyways gtg duno what else to say
xoxo_
ciao_

HAPPY BUTTDAY HAMISH!!! love yaz

2006-04-27T21:53:00.000-07:00

Me at school, suppose to be at music listening to the guys practice their song for nxt weeks assembly. hahaha. poor them. oh wells ahahaha. omg i cant wait till sunday we are going 4 sunday splash i cant wait its gona be SO fun hehehe. round the pool for a day with a bunch of friends just hanging out under the sun before school hahaha that sounds so fucking cool. hahaha. and next week is hamish birthday, i mite not be there 4 he's party thou cuz-SHIT i didnt get him a pressie SHIT SHIT!! oh well ermz i'l just say i'l give it to him another time hahaha. ewww the cleaner guy just put some stinky stuff on the table and it smells like shit!! oh its making me sick. hahaha. and chris is being a baby cuz he found out abt the group blog and he's not in it so he's being whiney abt it. hahaha. OMG i am soo glad its friday the week has been so slow. i just wana bum round at home go 4 a swim mite have a bbq cuz ice and them are coming over. then 2moro im gona bum round at home and swim then dian ish gona come over hehehe then on sunday we going to sunday splash YAY!! kekeke cant wait. i know my week sounds soo effing fun ay. hahaha.

OMG im so happy 4 dee and isa hehehe they look sooo cute.hehehe
and and adam and ashleigh (i fink thats how u spell her name) kekeke

dian and i came up with a theme song 4 ppl that are in a relationship hahah its "and they call it puppy lovee" hahahaha its weird but funny. hahaha. we were bored kay:P

ermz..ermz.. oh yeah. it seems like there isnt much drama anymore which is like so damn fucking good. esp during the disco i like didnt care abt anything for the 1st time i didnt let the drama bother me. but there was one. we got really freaked out. like at 1st it was just like ok but then it got like out of hand kinda thing and like dee and i got so freaked out. seriously. but its i fink its ok now. so yeah.

okay im gona stop here cuz i have nothing else to say FOR ONCE!!

xoxo_
ciao_

2006-04-22T07:02:00.000-07:00

Omg the disco last night was soooo fucking awesome!! i had soo much fun!! seriously there were soo much drama going on but i just didnt care and just kept on dancing until my feet hurt and i cldnt dance anymore. it was soooo fucking cool. the best disco i'v been to in isb it was awesome.gtg
xoxo_
ciao_

2006-04-17T04:41:00.000-07:00

Just came back 4rm chris's awhile ago. hehehe we were doin our drama and music when hamish said that our drama isnt due till thursday i was like omg YES!!! hahaha we were panicing. hahaha. omg i cant believe Oliver has ended it feels so different now. like no more staying back late after school and stuff. heheh. oliver was good thou i mean it was hard work but it went well. omg one thing i wont miss is the costume esp the bonnet. omg i hate that thing. i cant believe they use to wear that. thats just gross kekekeke. Omg yesterday was uri's b'day it was fun. we were playing rugby and stuff really cool. and yeah i met a few people there hehehe they were really cool. kekeke. I'm so bored and i have a drilling headache right now which sucks ass!! hehehe. anyways gtg.
xoxo_
ciao_

2006-04-11T07:05:00.000-07:00

Listening to where'd you go by fort minor and holly brook.

Feeling-Feeling like shit. I dont know why just do. you know sometimes you just feel like it and you dont know why. Thinking of a few ppl that made my life so interesting and cheerful. its like they made all my problems seem nothing. like they always made know that everything will be alright like every problem has a solution. but now that they are gone or they are still here i just dont see them anymore makes me thing will i ever get the same feeling again the feeling where i dont have to care abt what will happen to me or when im always happy and there isnt anything that bothers me. but i guess its to much to ask now. when someone has done something really really bad to someone real close to you and then they want you to forgive them should you i mean they'v caused so much pain and caused for you to have a "perfect" life. a life where you see other family's and feel like you dont want to be them. everyone thinks im "perfect" when im not. and when i tell them something abt me that to them shld be happening they get shock and be like omg ur that i dont want to talk to you anymore or something like that. i mean shld i be judge abt what i wear or how i act or where i live. we are all the same right we go to the same school we learn the same subject thought ny the same teacher. so why does it make me different. why is it that when something bad happend to me, its like the sky is falling for them. why is it that i cant make a mistake or act like a child for once. when they know all my childhood i had to act like an adult to hold in how i feel, to hold in my anger and act like an adult to everyone else. so isnt my time to act like a child now, to be carefree. so why are they holding me back? i dont maybe its just me. but sometime i wish i was some where different some where i wouldnt be judge all the time and watch'd all the time. its a fact that everyone should know abt me. they want so much 4rm me and when i'm not able to do it they turn their backs is that what friendship should be. somw one told me that friends are family you choose. so if im part of their family why do they do it. they just cant stop talking, they just cant help themselves even if there isnt anything to talk abt they make it up to ease their life cuz they cant handle theirs. its stupid but its always true. i dont know. but i want it to stop, hearing stuff untrue stuff gets to you after awhile. and while i stay here watching my friends leave, it gets me thinking, i really wana leave this lace cuz as much as i love all my friends i cant stay here watching them leave one by one they leave while im still here saying goodbye to them. is goodbye really enough. when you know that you arnt gona see them ever again. and if ur lucky you will. its a feeling never to be replaced i guess. maybe its just this place maybe its just brunei. but sometimes i really wish i wasnt here. or even part of this so called "family" i have i love thme all to bits but i just cant stop feeling the og being alone. im gona have to re-start my life for the 2nd time and it gets harder as you row older cuz you understand what happend. its was different when i was 5 but now that im 15 its gets alot more harder. im gona have to fix it. but do i maybe this is how its meant to be, a plan 4rm the above.

Today wasnt bad i was on holiday so i just bimed around at home was meant to do hmk but didnt. hrhrhr anyeways gtg.

To the ppl i wrote abt that left i miss you so god daymn much and i wish you were here with me always.

xoxo_
Ciao_

2006-04-10T08:04:00.000-07:00

I ain't no queen of hearts, I go through stages

I fall in love then complicate

yeah, you know the feeling

w/out much hope just blind ambition

pretending that there's nothing missing

I always kept believing that...

more, I thought if I had more I wouldn't get so bored

but everything just left me empty

love walkin in and out of my door wasn't good enough no more

well i dont trust myself life really sucks and...

[chorus]

first time i did it but i didnt do it

last time, that's when i really blew it

this time im gonna do it different cuz i know, i know, i know...

if i put everything i have into it

eventually im gonna get what's good for me

im just tryin to be creative

but everyone's so opinionated

wanna tell me what im feeling

cuz one man's junks another's treasure

when its done its hard to measure or keep on believing that...

more, if only i had more, i wouldn't get so bored

but i know its gonna leave me empty

life, walkin in and out of my door wasn't good enough no more

well i don't trust myself im gonna get stuck and...

[chorus]

first time i thought it but i didnt do it

last time, thats when i really blew it

this time im gonna do it different cuz i know, i know, i know...

if i put everything i have into it

eventually im gonna get whats good for me

cuz i dont want to live my life wondering if only i woulda, i shoulda, i coulda...

but i didnt cuz i only blame myself

again...first time i thought it but i didnt do it

last time, thats when i really blew it

so this time, this time, this time...

if i put everything i have into it

eventually im gonna get whats good for me

[chorus]

first time i thought it but i didnt do it

last time, thats when i really blew it

this time im gonna do it different cuz i know, i know, i know...

if i put everything i have into it

eventually im gonna get whats good for me

there a song for anyone who reads this. its called whats good for me by lucy woodward

Today wasnt that bad for a monday i mean cuz normally something happens. but today it as ok. it practically rain'd the whole day which was pretty good. but omg theres this chick in the grade below me i fink i only know she's younger than me, she has everything same as mine i wear a black o'reef hoodie to school and she has the same one, i use black converse shoes to school and she does the same its so annoying dude like seriously. im so effing pissed of at that i mean why cant she get her own style, and like 4rm the back she looks like me cuz of her hair its just that my hair is longer than hers, omg its so annoying, i took of my hoodie during lunch and she took it off aswell the sametime gawd, i was just like "OMG...WHAT THE" kinda thing. i mean if she has on ething thats the same as mine yeah it'd be ok but like she's like a clone of me and that aint cool nor right, its so annoying dude. and like im really starting to think that i should stop like the dude i like, there's just to much goin round now and i dont want anything to happen. ok im gona go to like an emo thing so just bare with me, here goes hahaha, its like whenever i see him i wana be with him but then i think like it would never happen which can be true and knowing that "edna" and "gamezone/rapunzel" like him it just make me feel like i wana saty away cuz i do, its confusing and i hate it. i just wana re-start everything including the ppl i like. dont get me wrong i like this dude and all its just that somethimes i wish..i duno what i wish. and i dont know what to do with my life ne more it may seem ok and everything is fine and wonderful but its not and ppl dont understand that its not, even the ppl that know whats happening to my lie its like they act like they dont and make me feel bad abt myself or a\make it seem like my life is a dump it actully makes me realise that some ppl that say they are my friends but arnt only come to me for cash or a ride or a place to stay and just mess up cuz i have stuff they dont and its not that its a bad thing its just that some people use me alot and like its getting really annoying so like im gona try and stay at home more now and stuff like that cuz i just cnt take it ne more, i just effing hate it when they say they are ur friend but they actully arnt, they only say that cuz they want stuff from me and when i cant give it to them they go behind my back and bitch abt me, i mean if ur gona bicth abt me say it to my face and dont say that ur my friend when im not, that just pisses me off alot and i cant take it ne more cuz it seems like everyone at school does that to me.

but anyways dian and i are starting a new leaf so we are leaning to skate so that when i move houses which is closer to them we can skate to each others houses and stuff which will be so daymn cool hehehe. today i was practicing skate boarding and i was goin so fast i cldnt stop so i kinda like jump off the board nd like started runing and i cld stop cuz i was so close to the gate i ran into the gate, it was pretty funny then but now it just hurts hahahaha. but yeah it was good im not that bad at it, i just have to learn how to move properly, turn, and stop hahahaha mark/mc hammer ish teaching us so yeah hahaha its gona be so fun..hehehe. i really like skate boarding, hehehe. and finally we are performing oliver this weekend im like so happy dont have to stay back after school late and i wont be so tired and stuff, lets just hope nofinks happens between now and this weekend or im gona get so effing pissed of. and i was chatting with chris just now, i miss him so daymn much he use to like call and txt me every single night and day and stuff he was so cool he was talking to he's mates abt me and now they all wana see me so like they are asking me to visit them during the summer holz..hahaha nd i told them to come and visit brunei when chris comes to visit during the summer holz..hehehe..i cant wait till he comes. *sigh anyways gtg

xoxo_

ciao_

2006-04-09T04:20:00.000-07:00

My weekend was going real great till today and im like so daymn pissed off now. on friday i went to gadong. dian and i followed hamish back to he's place. hahaha..he got so pissed of at us cuz we took so long to get ready. and when we were ready..we made him change his outfit like 2 times or something ahahah cuz we didnt like what he was wearing. hahaha. so we finally got ready and went to the mall. that was fun actully. we met up with david and roslee at first, then ros left to go to netcom.. so it was just the 4 of us till mags came. then we just hang'd at the chill till it was time for our movie we watched "ice age 2" its wasnt that bad actully. hahaha i kept on annoying david and hamish during the movie nd they got so pissed of hahaha it was funny.then i fink we met up with adam and we were just walking round till chris and i started playing hide and seek at the mall nd dinesh mags dee and adam was looking for the 2 of us and we were right behind them practically hahaha that was funny. then we met up with liam and he joined us untill dinesh and mags found us..hehehe oh wells. after that we just hang'd out at west street. until i had to go with liam to pick up my mom. and it was like pouring rain..and yes i got ina car with liam DRIVING!! hahaha nah he aint that bad. after picking up my mom she droped us of at gadong again and OMG it was so embarrassing cuz like liam and ted kept on goin "feel my nipple feel my nipple its all hard and cold" and i'm just like oh my gawd!! and when we reached the mall they waited for me till i reached where they were and they both started acting like retards omg and they were like hold my hand cynthia hold my hand and i kept on goin no, so ted said really loudly "why dont you like us" and i was like omg. and they kept on doing that till we reached west street it was so embarrassing!! and nofink else happend after that we met up with haziq and bakhtiar and just kinda like bum'd at west street till isa, haziq and bakh had to go so dee adam and i went to coffee bean to have our dinner and we just chatted till we had to go home.
On saturday dude dee and i left our school bags at yu foongs shop so i had to go gadong again to take our bags. as soon as i went home i had a really really long shower ate and fell asleep in front of the tv isnt that just so cool.hahaha. then my mom came back from work and woke me up. cuz we had to go to our new house and see stuff..hahaha and after that i went to dee's house that was fun. we just bum round watching tv and goin online untill like 1 am then we ninjad with hamish then haz came and we all freaked out cuz he look so different wearing a hoodie we thought it was some random guy and haimsh wanted to like turn to him and go what the fuck do you want you fucking cunt kinda thing it was funny..ahaha. haz and dian talk'd so long mish and i left them so they cld sort things out so while mish and i were waiting we start'd talking abt random stuff. hahaha. nd finally they finish talking haz left. dee and i need'd to go to the toilet so we sneak into mish's house to use he's toilet and we were suppose to be "quite" hahaha but we werent hahaha. then faiz and mert joined us. and we went to my new house and just hang'd out there. heheh and we went back to dee's round 6:30 i fink and only got to bed at 7 and we had to wake up at 8 to go to church omg i was so tired i smelt of alcohol and we didnt finish till like 10 i fink. oh and we saw ashley there aswell i know that not how her named is spelt but yeah who cares. and when we were back at dee's dian and i decided to skate to chris's hahahaha it was so funny dian was falling all over the place. it aws hilarious. hahaha and we almost got knocked down by a car pasing by..hahahaha chris was just laughing he's head of at us. dian was roller bladin and i was skate boarding. its actully pretty fun. thats our new thing now, skating. we gona skate to each others house when i move closer to them. hehehehe.
my day wasnt so bad till we got a txt 4rm adam saying that mags thinks that we are trying to turn him against her and im just like what the hell why would we do that mags is like one of my bestfriend why would i turn someone against her. so like im really pissed of at this and im gona find out who did it no matter what cuz they shouldnt talk shit like that to or at my friends. so yeah and on top of that someone told my mom that when i say im goin to sleep over a friends i dont like for example if i told my mom im sleepong ova at dians and she or my driver drops me at hers then i sneak out at night and stay at someone else's place and go back to dee's in the morning and im just like what the hell why should i do that, i mean like dude so im really pissed of at that aswell and im gona find out who said that to her. stuff like that just pisses me off gawd!! anyways gtg.
xoxo_
ciao_

2006-04-02T17:24:00.000-07:00

I can not believe we have school today..im so daymn tired its like not funny..haha. me weekend went great so that was good at least.
On friday it was nesh's party..i must admite it was fun..i thought it was gona be boring cuz its jp nd none of the rides worked but it was fun..we played the bumper cars and the water log which is one of my fav ride in jp. I'm still sore from everything..i hate nesh's brother he bumped me so hard i hit my head on the wheel than bounced back and hit at the back it hurts so much and still does now i have a bump on ny neck nd the seat belts are so rough it like cut my neck which hurts even more..nd like 4rm far it looks like a hikkie but its not..hahaha.. its from the seat belt. but other than that it was fun we left jp like round 9:30 and hahaha it was like 5 of us stuck in the back seat my of driver's car cuz both drivers came. it was dee, mish, david, simon nd me...hahaha.. and hahaha..simon was laying on our laps nd dee and i had the wrong side..hahaha..it was so funny..and like we had to stop cuz simon had to take a piss so we had to stop nd after that he sat on mish's lap..and we all sarted singing in the car cuz i had to give mish, david and simon a ride back.
On saturday dee and i only woke up like round 11 cuz of ppl txt'in and callin us..well i got woken up by mish like i fink round 7 or 8 and i have no idea what he said..hahaha..then just as dee and i woke up nd went to watch tv mish and david came over..to go to gadong...so dee nd i got ready..acrodin to mish and david we took a long time to get ready but i dont think so..haha..dee did mish's hair and i "tried" to put eyeliner on david but he kept on blinking so i cldnt do it..hahaha..and i tried to put it on 4 mish aswell but that didnt work. after getting ready we went to gadong/G.town dude..hahahaha..that was fun too we just met up with a few friends and just bum around gadong but i had to leave early cuz i had to go to church nd dee cam with me ehehehe nd we saw mags in the choir hehehe..she look'd so cuutteee..ehehehe. Omg and yesterday morni we had oliver early..i was so tired after oliver i went home and just slept till like 6 or 7pm just in time for dinner..hahaha..than i went to bed like round 1 or 2..eeheheh..anyways me gtg..break time ehehehe
xoxo_
ciao_

2006-03-29T07:00:00.000-08:00

Sigh* im so confused.....i dont know what to do. i think i like this dude..but i really dont know...its messing with my head...nd i hate it.

School wasnt so bad today there wasnt much drama and bitching. I was so tired at school today if i could i would have slept in every lesson i had..but i cldnt cuz like I had mr.troy 4 physics..so yeah..i dont really wana get into trouble with him. I stay'd up like untill 3 in the morning chatting to max and chris grace last nite or should i say this morning..i kept on hinting that i wanted to go to sleep nd stuff but nahl...they didnt get it..hahah oh boys so oblivious. speaking of obliviious i think i shld win a medal for the most oblivious person. a guy was telling me how much he miss's me nd wish i was there with him nd hes so depressed with out me cuz he moved nd stuff and there i am there i am thinking he was playing around goin awww yeah i miss u too nd stuff...until i knew that he meant it then i was like...oh shit im so dumb...hahaha when i think about it i laugh at my self hahaha.. oh it was kinda emberissing haha. yeah nd chris is coming to visit during the summer i cant wait..hehehe...hes so cool..haha. things between mish nd grey isnt that like obvious..like they still talk but inside they hate each other..its kinda dumb if u ask me..but still they are guys..hahaha. the oliver production is on next week im so pump'd up..i cant wait for it finally we are gona perform. and ohh!!! i hate my real bad he piss'd me off so much i just feel like..ehhhh.....the nerve of him...gawd. see thats why i like my step dad..arge..piss me off..gawd. oh just now at school adam show'd us like a lump at the back of hes neck cuz of diving it was so disgusting..i saw it and just left didnt want to hear how he got it i just left cuz it was so gross..hahaha. anyway im gona go.
xoxo_
ciao_

2006-03-28T04:52:00.000-08:00

Sigh today isnt as bad as i thought..school went pretty good..for once..hahaha oh dude after school was funny..we were laughing so damn much..dee spat er drink and it was all over mags shoe...hahahaha that was hell funny i cldnt stop laughing...hahahaha. nd ermz...hahaha the twins gave me this thing to hang up at my door nd it makes noise when u squeez it..hahaha nick nd dee got so pissed off..cuz i kept on squeezing it..hahahaha..that was hell funny...nd its so weird some one took our pic 4rm our locker nd stuff'd it at the school bored and now we cant get it out..so me and dee ish just like oh who ever did it..cuz we gona ask mrs.C to open the glass thingy so we can take our pic..hehehe ne way gots ta go.
xoxo_
Ciao_

2006-03-27T05:38:00.000-08:00

Omg...im so sick of everyone telling me who they hate..its pissing me owf..and its mostly the guys..and im just like ok what do you want me to do..i think thats why im getting headache's all the time its cuz of them..its driving me nuts..hahaha..but im kinda glad i told mish abt whats happening with him and grey..grey hates mish..and mish didnt noe abt it..in not gona typr down everything cuz its alot of bitchy stuff...and u never know who reads this...so im not gona say ne thing..but im glad i told mish some stuff..i just hope they dont start fighting cuz i really REALLY dont wana get involved..esp with this..sigh..i just hope nothing serious happen. other than that school is really messed up now everyones leaving..and stuff..and i've been having headaches since last friday constantly..and its really freaky..i duno..maybe its just me..or sumfinks..i duno..sigh..neways gona go
xoxo_
ciao_

2006-03-22T03:54:00.000-08:00

Gah. Im so blah..bored..happy..sad..emo..i duno..haha..yeah im emo today..i duno..a friend leaving again it just sucks ass…you know you go through the same thing over and over again you cry hug say goodbye cry..and be all emo for a day or 2…than you get over it and hope none of ur friends leave again cuz it hurts so much..if it hurts so much than why do we make friends i mean we all know they are gona leave us and it hurts right..so why do we wana hurt ourselves..oh i duno..its so confusing...its life" i guess..hahaha..u know what..life is selfish..cuz it gives u everything u want right...and if like it so much and feel so comfy around it thats when it gets taken away 4rm u..but the things that hurts you..will never leave untill that gets better kinda thing..and it just sucks ass!! today was so fun..i went to the mall with max mags and gary..since its the last time i'll be spending time with max..we watch'd v for vendetta or sumtin..its really confusing..i didnt get the movie at all...well maybe its cuz i kept on arguing with max..haha..but thats not the point..haha..yeah..after that we went to the chill and just chill there 4 awile...and guess what OMG we went to play wax skating..well we were suppose to play pool but it was max's decision so we played wax skating..OMG..me and mags were wearing thongs..so we had to RENT SOCKS 4rm the wax skating place..omg it was so gross..max and gary just laughed at us..oh..dude it was so damn nasty that will be my firts and last time wearing socks 4rm that place..ehh..and the shoe thingy stank..aswell...it was just so nasty..seriously..the only reason i did it was cuz max was leaving and stuff..and u know..oh..he just had a good time laughing at me..abt that..him and gary was enjoying laughing at me and mags..ehhh..its so gross...im never doing that again..i still cant believe i did that..seriously..u shld have seen my face..hahaha...ohh..good times thou..im gona miss him sooooooooooooooo daymn fucking much...he's like my brother..but of course wen im at gadong there must be drama...gary left the movies cuz i think cuz he got abit jealous at me and max fooling around..so he left the movie..and after the movie i called him to join us and he didnt want to..cuz he didnt feel like it..and max is there so i can have fun with him..i dont need gary..so being me i got pissed of and said if he didnt wana join dont and i hung up..hahaha but in the end he joined us..hehehe..he was like what happend to ur phone we got cut off..i was like err..i hung up..but i didnt tell him that..i just smiled and said i duno must be dst or something..hahahah..ohh..the things i have to go through...hahaha..but yeah..all in all it was fun..im gona miss max so much..gah why does he have to leave...and dex..hahaha. My life has been so messy and still is..i just hope i can get back on my feet and you know be "normal" what ever that is..but my proud of myself i havent ninjad, got drunk or smoke in i think 3 weeks now..so im proud of ma self..hehehehe..ohhh and liam is coming on friday..that'd be cool...hahaha..i just hope he doesnt find out abt all the stuff i've been doing..or im dead!! hokies im gona go eat ice-cream with alot of fudge sit in front of the tv and sulk be all emo like..hahahaha...cioa
xoxo_
cyn_

2006-03-13T01:49:00.000-08:00

Me listening to what's good for me by Lucy Woodward its a cool song>_<>
xoxo_
Cyn_

2006-03-10T23:31:00.000-08:00

Im so bored..for once i wish i wasnt homealone..im always homealone dad is working at KB mum is working in a hotle and billy is always at my cos's house playing games..and there's me homealone doing nothing well not doin nothing im going to gadong laters i cld go now just that my driver is at seria and wont be here till 4:30 ish so yeah...my msn doesnt work 4 some really strange reason its pissing me owf!! i cant wait till the holz only one more week of school:D oh yeah but then we get our reports which sucks ass!! my parents was like if you dont get a good report ur not gona go out and if its really bad we will move u to jis and im just like what JIS the worst school ever!![no affence to the ppl i know there] but still jis its sooo..not me.. yeah so like im hopeing i get good marks thats if mr.bates decides to change his mind and give everyone good grades*sigh. on the brighter note i might be going to KL during the holz 4 some shopping i cant wait, shopping is like the best thing in the whole wide world hahaha;p well besides soccer,music and art that is haha. *sigh i wish my driver was here so i can go im like so bored i wanted to invite some of my mates over but i woke up l8 haha so i cldnt be bothered to txt em..hehe and way im gona go and watch tv or something..haha byeeeee.
xoxo_
Cyn_

Just another day

2006-03-10T03:00:00.000-08:00

Im listening to Blink 182-stay together for the kids and Jimmy eat world-work dont know why just feel like it. I cant say that my day was bad cuz it wasnt (i just feel like going away thats all) this morning during history mr.Canterford[our principle] gave us crisps in class and we were doing our work and eating at the same time and he's gona do that everytime we have history now which is like so damn wicked!!, we never use to have him we use to have mr.frank till he left without telling anyone about it and he left everything in his house and stuff so yeah our principle is taking over till we get a new history teacher. Oh and in english everyone is pissed off at our english teacher he gave everyone bad marks and comments which is really annoying and the worst bit was that he said that we are the worst class he ever had and stuff like that if he really hates our class why cant he just move to another english class or something..why stay when you hate everyone in that room..and like he called parents in and stuff and like no one is speaking in class only if he ask's a question other than that NO ONE speaks at all!! I just dont know school's becoming so intense now a days..it sucks i wish i could go back to like grade 5 or 6 or something when it was as all simple and calm and we get less work. its so weird not having the primary students at school it seem so quite its cuz of the hand-foot-mouth diseases and our music teacher said that secondary might close next week because of the dieseases because a 13 yr old kid died yesterday its kinda scary and like everyone's freaking out and if u go into the primary toilets they all smell of detol it kinda makes u sick after awhile. so cuz of the dieseases Oliver got postponed till april which sucks cuz i really wanted to perform it today and 2moro i think everyone did. and i cant believe max and dex is leaving in like 2 weeks its so sad..life without max and dex and someone 4rm our yr mite move to st.andrews. everyone is leaving getting out of brunei leaving all the shit behind, i'd consider them lucky that they are laving brunie but then again they are leaving friends which i know will suck ass cuz i've been moving schools since i was in yr 4 so yeah i know how they feel. okays other than school and people leaving..there's so many things i wana say but i cant cuz i know that ppl will read this and give really bad comments abt it or something i cant talk to anyone abt it and it sucks cuz they wont understand all i can do is keep it in till one day when i finally snap and say it all but what good is that cuz they will never understand all im doing now to get my feeling out is doing art not like drawing ones its the ones that u cant tell what it is till u really look at it. im gona go and eat and sulk infornt of the tv watching narnia the best movie ever!!
xoxo
cyn_

2006-02-28T04:55:00.000-08:00

*sigh today wasnt that bad it was a very long day had soccer match after school at jis mahn that was tough dude..but we won 2-0 so thats good we hace another match next tuesday at school against st.georges..i hope they arent rough or ne thing or im gona die..hahaha maybe not but yeah..besides that my day's gone pretty good oh no wait i was told today that i have a bio test 2moro..whats up with teachers anyway..sheeesh they act like we're robots or something..hahaha stupid mofo's. i cant wait till the holidays need to sort out my life and everything..haha which is true..and i really really need to know whats gona happen with my family and if im moving or not or if my rents are gona get back again you would think since i've been through this b4 i'd get over it easily but no dude..its been harder than ever i think cuz im older thats why..i mean when i was little i didnt understand it all right..ahh just uck it i dont care ne more..and my mom wants me to be someone im not or get use to being someone im not and its so fucking..BLAH!! *sigh anyways for more better news ermz....yeah i dont know..so im gona go..peace out

NOOOOOO!!!!

2006-02-18T07:08:00.001-08:00

NOOOOOOOO!!!!!! i can not believe Man U lost against Liverpool..ohh this sucks ass!! after 85 yrs Man u losses to Liverpool gawd this sucks. k enuf of soccer for now yesterday was the valentines disco it wasnt as good and fun but its alright..could have been better yeah i think the best bit was dancing with adam isa and them it was so funny, playing chasey with elle in the rain hahahahaha and messing round with max and all hahahaha they make me laugh so much esp when im sad..hehehe thanks guys:P and im grounded oh gawd not sure when i can go out arge sucks ass!! but yeah..omg dee and i have been such bums today, we woke up had breakfast when up to my room when to sleep woke up in the afternoon ate sumtin then we just watched tv till er parents came..hahahahaha..kay back to soccer I CANT BELIEVE THEY LOST stupid effing ass liverpool they suck they shldnt have won not 4 the FA cup anyways arge..kay now that thats done with hahahahahha i shall go hahaha peace out:p

NOOOOOO!!!!

2006-02-18T07:08:00.000-08:00

board

2006-02-15T05:06:00.000-08:00

OMFG..im so damn bored..i finsh my drama project im so proud of myself..hahahahha school was ok-ish today..nothing interesting happened..the mid term social is on friday not really looking forword to it and dont really wana go but i have to cuz everyones forcin me to..so i'll just go 4 the sake of going..and 4 dee since she really wants to go.. i cant believe oliver is in three weeks ok i think its time for me to panic since i have no idea what to do or what are the words for the song..im so dead and in one of the part im a posh person with three kids*i know kids* and one of them brontey or whatever her name is, is so so so so so damn annoying and really really rreeaallyy HYPER like omg hyper..omg she is like so..*sigh* im so dead lucky mags is with me hahahaha she's one of my kid..hahaha weird right. valentines wasnt as bad as i thought hahahaha i had like the most roses and choc's in my class and all the guys got so pissed off cuz it was like atiqah angel cynthia bianca cynthia veronica cynthia chris cynthia hahaha and the guy got so pissed off it was really funny hahahaha and plus we got like free time for maths and science which was fuunnn hahaha anyways i gtg..peace out:P

At school bored to death

2006-02-12T23:12:00.000-08:00

Im so damn fucking bored dude.....me at school, dee and chris is right beside me..hahaha im suppose to do my drama project thats due 2moro..im so dead!!! mags party is on saturday and guess what day it is 2moro VALENTINES DAY yay:P im so looking forword 4 it NOT!! hahaha it just sucks ass dude..and everyones like "you rejected the guys that asked you, why...why would you do that" ..im just like "errrr..i dont know"..dude what am i suppose to say when someone ask's me that. :P dee's beside me talking to herself cuz whatever she's doing isnt working properly i guess so yeah hahahah u shld listen to er..hahahaha. dee dont swear too much theres a teacher behind u..hahahaha. OMG im so blah. you know how sometimes u feel like ur traped in a room with no air to breath and the more you struggle the less air you get..yeah that is how i feel..its bad i know..just cant help it..i know what i did might be a good thing but then again i kinda wish i didnt and the worst part is that i dont know if im right or wrong yeah i'd ofcourse listen to everyone that told me but then again what if they were wrong..not that im saying they are..and everytime i want to let go i see that person and it gets me really pissed off sad and blah at the same time..hahaha..anyways i gtg and do my drama b4 4 hahaha..

long weekend

2006-02-10T19:15:00.000-08:00

Ay there.. ohh dude last weekend was very interesting...hahahaha..dee shld know ehehehe friday was yu foongs party..dude so much shit happend there i dont know where to start hahaha it was fun actully[for the ones that didnt go u shld have] everyone got pisst drunk well not everyone but mostly everyone. i cant really remember everything that happend but yeah 4rm what i remember and 4rm what dee has told me it was a fun night hahaha all i remember is chasing yu foongs dog with marcus and calling them horseeey hahaha getting a really bad cut on my hand 4rm a plant yes a plant and it hurts so much dude its not even funny and its all bruised up and it turned green-ish blue-ish color..weird ay..ohh and haha being upstairs in yu foongs guest room with roslee,simon and faiz and we heard a noise and roslee going whats that noise is that Budha talking to me and me going yeah i think it is Budha & starts laughing when it was dee entering the room..hahaha some crazy shit i cant even remember going back to dee's place hahah. then on saturday i slept ova dee's again and we ninjad and it was so creapy at 1st cuz we were walking to chris's house and this car with 3 old guys in it starts foollowing us and like asking if they could give us a ride and dee was like fuck off fuck off but they didnt listen and like one of them actully open the door to let us in the car but we kept on walking then like this really howt white mers car stops and asks if we are ok and were those guys bothering us and stuff that was really sweet. when our ride came we went to the beach and it was soo fun cuz lj gary max mark and nigel came and it was their 1st time sneaking out and it was sooo cute they were like how can u do this every weekend dont u get tired hahaha they kept on yapping abt it all nite/morning and that was a crazy night too..gary and lj drop'd their mobile phone into the holes between the rocks and one of the guys got stuck hahaha it was so damn funny we got back like round 6 and only went to bed like round 6:30-ish cuz we walked over chris's again to wake him up hahahaha. yeah we do some crazy shit dee and i..hahaha anyways gtg ttyl byeeeeez

the first of many.

2006-02-01T23:52:00.000-08:00

hey y'all.

right, this is dee and im here because just testing out this new site i made for cyn, her being too lazy to do it herself. okays. uh. yeh basically this is just a test entry so uhm.. im gonna go. hahaha wait! i do have one thing to blog about.. shes sleeping over tomorrow!

hahaha i remember last week when she slept over, we had a very eventful and party filled weekend. disco dancing, cyn getting.. .. under the influence of alcohol.. and ninjaing outt! hehehe on the way to our destination when we were ninjaing.. we stopped by this hotel because miss cyn here, had to pee. anyways not gonna talk about that, but as we staggered back to the car, i realised.. there was a limo in the front! yes people! we actually have l i m o ' s in brunei! who knew! okay thats off the topic, righteo. okies. so basically what im getting at here is; i cant waiiiit for tomorrow because we have more parties and ninjaing to do. haha but im sure she'll blog about that, if not, i shall annoy the living hell out of her til she does.

okies, ciao~ off to do my site. haha if you want to visit that crazy place, just look at the links.

dee_